hello! (:

2007-11-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

relink please :D

http://xanga.com/cassypops

2007-11-02T22:14:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for Wednesday! This place is getting so boring.

But tomorrow should be a good day (: gm and tpy excursion :O haha

boringboringboring

2007-11-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

The choice was made today. I definitely hope it was a good one cause it's something I like :D Though the next 2 years will be tough, i will work hard :D

Wednesday's HCL paper was okay, I hope I'll do well.

Progress report didn't look very pleasant today but, I'll work harder :D (oh no, that sounds like boxer /:)

I must be a nutter :DDDDD

2007-10-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

It's less than 10 hours before the paper. And it's now that I'm beginning to feel the heat. I'm only panicking now, realising I haven't been putting in any effort into this one and only Olevel paper I am taking tomorrow.

Okay, the only thing I wish for now is that I suddenly become a Chinese Pro tomorrow :D

GO GO GO

2007-10-30T20:03:00.001+08:00

I hope my 10 years of taking Chinese will end tomorrow. Please bless that it does :D

明天是华文 O 水准。因此，我要在这里用华文打字。希望明天，会写得更加通顺。祝我好运。今天我一正天都用华文打字，太酷了！

另外，我也要祝那些刚开始考 A 水准的学长们好运。还有那些，在考 O 水准的人，加油。

哈哈哈。希望明天是一个好日子，　让每个人都有好的运气　

2007-10-27T16:25:00.001+08:00

Childhood dreams do not come true so easily.

but i certainly do not want to end up stoning my life away.

2007-10-25T18:39:00.001+08:00

yay! i found my entry proof! :D

2007-10-25T17:32:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the last day of HCL concentration camp! :D I'm super pleased. But it officially ends on Monday for me. /: Cause Wenlaoshi demands to see mel and i on Monday.

Can't wait for 31st October! But shortly after is the choosing of my subject combination. Hopefully i will make the right choice :D

I do not look forward to E-radio at all. It seems so boring and its a waste of time! Spending the entire day in school staring at weird programming stuff -.-

Okay and i sleep a lot nowadays :D NICE :D

2007-10-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

Hello. Life is relaxing but somehow weird after the exams.

I no longer have motivation to do anything. Okay, exams are not exactly over yet since there's still Higher Chinese Olevels which doesn't seem to motivate me in any way.

I slept the entire morning today. I woke up at 11am to have my brunch and went back to sleep immediately after. I just woke up (:

It doesn't seem right to live life like that. Haha. I havent been doing anything constructive.

Anyway, yesterday's class gathering was one of the most successful one i think. Barbeque was fun and the food was really good. I was so bloated :D

I'm an ultimate loser in Mario Kart :P Probaby i just do not have the affinity with video/computer games.

5th out of 9 days of HCL concentration camp. Horrible! 1st November please come come come.

And i kind of decided on my subject combination though everyone advised me against it.

2007-10-19T23:39:00.001+08:00

disappointed ):

2007-10-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

If everyday were to be like today, I am sure I will do well for HCL olevels :D

Its only the 2nd out of 9 days of HCL concentration camp. Boring.

Mel and i had an interesting conversation with a woman from China on the bus today :DD Made me feel pleased about my standard of chinese :D

I'm still recovering from the trauma of it /: haha But it was definitely something to be pleased about :D

Mooncake festival celebrations seemed interesting, sadly i missed most of it /: Haha

2007-10-01T17:31:00.001+08:00

Although it was just mugging. I loved it! I miss you guys! Yesterday was the best day since this 2 terms. I miss those times!

Thankyou!

2007-09-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

I am sixteen and 2 days old.
This 16th birthday was just like any other ordinary day though (:

I went to school, went to j8 for lunch after school and headed straight home after which. Okay, going out for lunch after school is probably something out of the ordinary during this period of time where we are all supposed to mug intensively.

Birthdays are actually nothing special now that i think of it. Or rather, it gave me a chance to look back at what I've done these past 16 years. I'm pleased that I'm still alive and kicking, having fun, and doing meaningful things.

I remember those days when i count down from 37402987569845 days for my birthday cause it's so fun
and i can get lots of presents :D

Small days were fun :D Because you never had to worry about mugging
on your birthday at least.

But then again, CASSANDRA SEE HUI MIN told me on my birthday that mugging on your birthday makes you feel older and more mature :D

And i really felt that way! LOL but i bet the seniors will say "That's just what you feel! You are still SMALL"

Okay, anyway, thanks to those who remembered that day :D

thanks for the 1 call, 26 smses, the messages through msn, those friendster comments and facebooks presents and graffitis! :D

Okay! back to mugging :D

2007-09-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

Few more days to being legal, though it doesnt really affect much :D

Counting down to 13 more days! End of EOM, end of mugging like a crazy mugger at home! :D

2007-09-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

A sudden crazy impulse to play a duet with PEARLYN NEO! ):

I miss playing with you! Join Njco with me please! :D

2007-09-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

Class photo-taking tomorrow.

One year and 9 months plus have just zoomed past like that. It's the last year with ohtwo, i think i will miss it ):

2007-09-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

B4 for chinese ):
Although i don't like the results, it doesn't make me want to work harder or do those homework more dilligently.

I shall try praying for luck to be on my side during olevels HCL.

Biology double period at the is lab was horrible today. There was a gas leakage and the smell was threatening. Any spark would have turned us into roasted pigs :O

But we were forced back into the lab for lesson because we didn't have any more time to spare ):

2007-09-15T13:33:00.001+08:00

i was supposed to be a penghulu.
But i'm doing a real bad job ):

2007-09-14T21:55:00.001+08:00

Mean people in the world unite ):

2007-09-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

Slipped Away Lyrics
Artist(Band):Avril Lavigne

Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

[Chorus]
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It won't be the same
Oh

Na na
Na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't ooooooooooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

[Chorus]X2

Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you

<3

I have been listening to this song since Sec1 but it was only today that i noticed the lyrics.
Ahh! You know what i mean! If you dont, then probably you shouldnt be reading this. Haha :P

2007-09-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

Haha. Saw this quiz on dhika's blog and its kind of lame so i decided to do it :D:D:D:D

thank me dhika! hahaha

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tag you is?
dhika

2. Your relationship with him is:
senior-junior

3. Your 5 impressions of him:
1. GAY
2. GAY
3. GAY
4. GAY
5. crazy physics GAY

4. The most memorable thing he has done for you?
scared me with a snake!

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
IP KID!

6. if he becomes your lover, you will?
i am not gay! :D

7. if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
i am not gay! :D

8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
step on him :D sure break

9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
too gay! haha

10. the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
buy him a mug :D

11. your overall impression of him/her is?
:O

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
how would i know? :P

13. the character you love of yourself is?
hmm... weird?

14. on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
indecisive i think :/ and NOOB! haha

15. the most ideal person you want to be is?
noone at the moment :D

16. for people that care and like you, say something to them.
i didnt know such people existed! thanks anyway :D hahaha

17. pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. meowly
2. jojo
3. niggies
4. shihui (do it after your As!)
5. dhika! (DO IT AGAIN!)
6. pearlyn neo (if you ever read this :D)
7. adeline! (do it after you Os :D)
8. seetow
9. daiqianwei! (lol! this is totally random!)
10. yangyibo
:O i just realised all the chinamen behind :O

who is no.6 having relationship with?
some korean band /: haha

Is no.9 a male or female?
hmm...

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
LOL cannot! height difference! :P

How bout no.8 and 5?
lol! not bad! 2 gays :P

What is no.2 studying about?
reproductive systems

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
2hours ago?

What kind of music band does no.8 like?
i dont know! but i know he likes hongkong cutegirls though :D

Does no.1 has any siblings ?
2 little sisters who hates me for stealing their food :D

Will you woo no.3 ?
:O if i were a guy!

How about no.7 ?
my ex-laogong! :D of course i still love her! haha

Is no.4 single ?
i dont know how many papas i have! haha

What is the surname of no.5?
WIGUNA JAHJA! lol! i dont know which one is the surname la. one of those. haha oh isit yahya? haha :D

What is the nickname of no.10?
chinaman? yyb? i dontknow!

What is the hobby of no.4?
basketball :O and giving birth /: haha

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
haha! language barrier :D

Where is no.2 studying at?
neoacademy :D

Talk something casually about no.1?
she meowly. she likes to make wasabi as much as i do :D

Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
cannot! abangs cannot gay! LOL

Where does no.9 live at?
ri boarding sch!!! lol

What color does no.4 like?
orange!

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
hahahahaha quite :D

Does no.7 likes no.2?
NO LINK /:

How do you get to know no.2?
bounce!

Does no.1 have any pets?
yes pet sausage dog named cassy /:
and cat named cassy too /:

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
YES!!! OF COURSE MY EX LAOGONG ROCKS! hahaha

2007-09-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

no more sleeping till the sun shines on me ):

2007-09-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

Biology drives people nuts. My efficiency level is almost negative thanks :D
Oh no, what happened? I still want to be a gynecologist! Why don’t I find any interest in this topic? Okay fine.

I’m nuts.

“Holidays” are coming to an end. And I have done nothing much other than sleeping. I look back at my September holidays 9 years ago and imagine what my September holidays will be like a few years down.

I’m nuts.

2007-09-05T20:26:00.001+08:00

Inefficient mugging day.

Woke up early in the morning to go to school for MI meeting. We kind of completed it :D

Then went to some ulu-ated area in school with jojo to/attempt to mug. Did a little bio and just stoned or slept all the way. Jojo, on the other hand, was distracted by neopets :D

After that, we had lunch at Adam's and rushed to AMK hub for ratatouille! :D It's a cute show, quite nice :D But i enjoyed Simpson's a teeny bit more.

mugmugmug!!!
I'm probably crazy. Missing someone real bad now. A someone i don't even, exactly, know.

2007-09-04T12:36:00.001+08:00

I just spent an hour drawing a flower.
Why can't a flower just be a circle in the middle with 4 petals surrounding it.

I don't want to know how a flower reproduces anyway. Ahh bio is getting boring /: There's so much to mug for.

carnivore in the evening :DDD

2007-09-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

It was jojo's birthday yesterday! :D

So now all 3 of them can watch nc16 together and play pool legally, but i still can't!

haha its okay :D my turn will come soon :D

And I went back to nanhua after the teacher's day's celebration. I miss the small days ):

Everything and everyone has changed. It’s different now.

Haha. I miss the wallet game though I still do not understand it’s objective :D

2007-08-27T21:40:00.001+08:00

Physics or biology?

It's not just two years, it's a lifetime.

2007-08-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

Hello! I have finally completed my vectors tutorial this morning at 2am. And today I have to start on my MI essay! I have only 4 days left to do it! And Monday, we are going parliament, Tuesday fort canning. NO TIME! Haha I’m just going to die for MI. And I have no clue at all of how to write it.

I chose question number 4. “Science extends and enriches our lives, expands our imagination and liberates us from the bonds of ignorance and superstition” (adopted by Council, American Physical Society). Assess this claim based on what you have learnt in this module.

Hope it will be okay. I just want to pass my mi and get over and done with it this year. Never thought of going for KI next year because I totally can’t qualify for it, judging from my MI grades till now. And I so do not have time now. All I ask for is a little more sleep :D

Wish me luck for my essay :D

Byebyebyebyebye!

한국!

2007-08-19T12:15:00.000+08:00

haha i just discovered how to type in korean using my comp and I'm pleased :D

Its such a distraction. I'm supposed to be doing my physics take-home assignment how but apparently I'm trying to figure out how to write some words!

There are limited words i know of now. haha

한국! "han guk" KOREA

가산다라 "ka san da la" Cassandra

종패산 "chong p'eir san" Cheong Pei Shan

바보! "pa bo" fool!

안녕 "an nyeong" hello/byebye (to same age/ younger)

안녕하세요 "an nyeong ha s[e] yo" hello (to elders)

안녕히가세요"an nyeong hi ga s[e] yo" byebye (to elders)

haha okay i have limited knowledge of korean but i will work hard! :D

ohh and i dislike the look of my name in korean. i prefer circles and boxes. HAHA

2007-08-18T14:25:00.000+08:00

Hello! Yay! It's the weekend again. But sadly, almost half it is over. Weekends are mugging days but for me, its just, catch up with homework time! Cause I never ever do my homework. Okay, loads of stuff to do!

School is freaky now cause EOM examinations are coming and we got to rush rush rush! It feels like we have just started on these modules but now the teachers are all talking about the examination.

GC is all about time management and we always got to plan our time well, let the teachers assess. But something good because a few times, I managed to keep to the timetable :D

Okay anyway shall cook my Maggie mee and continue doing my LA short story :D byebyebye!

2007-08-12T11:27:00.000+08:00

Hello! yes I know it's been a long time since I last blogged. And as dhika has tagged, my blog has turned mouldy.

But life recently hasn't really been worth talking about. Itâs just routine I have to follow so that I won't flop as badly for my EOM exams. Mel commented that I have turned muggy recently. Cause now, I try to complete my homework and hand them in on time! And thatâs a great achievement for me! I haven't been doing that for the past 6 months in ip2.

For the past 6 months, I have been a big fat slacker, trying to skip as many lessons as I can everyday. Now I still do, but it's just Chinese that I try to skip. Anyway, yes mel, I have turned a little more muggy but compared to everyone else except you, I am still a slacker. But, mel being mel doesn't need to mug much and can just do well for exams! Unfair pok!

Haha anyway of course, I still try to have a life :D Since school reopened, I haven't had much time for pa cause of KSA so now Im trying to work harder for pa! I just did my first major event since the seniors stepped down. which is the NDC. But frankly, I think I haven't done a really good job ): but still I will work harder! :D

Oh! And I am going to join njco soon! I saw them practicing before their concert and I so wanted to play with them. I missed playing in an orchestra. And after watching their concert, I was even more inspired to join! See, I am not that muggy, I still have a life and I have CCAs :D

Okay, anyway I have to get back to doing my work. There's like so many deadlines to meet that I have gone nuts. Haha okay wonder when will my next post be, so miss me please! :D

I miss obs! No mugging and nothing to worry about ):

And I miss shihui jialin dhika ivan elaine jen mingxuan yihong yibo chakyan! I miss njpa 0607.

Oh! And i forgot to add till i saw HE's tag. I was robbed that day after NDP! and guess what i was robbed of! An NDP bag /: the guy must have been so desperate for that bag so i just had to surrender it before he dragged me away. Still it was indeed a traumatic experience /:

2007-07-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hello! Haven’t been blogging for a long long time. Didn’t have the mood to do so recently. I have no idea why. Probably too tired or something.

Haha. Life is okay. Missing a lot of lessons this few weeks because of the KSA people. It is generally quite fun. Haha. Homestay weekend just ended and this week and part of next week, they are going to NTU and NUS for research attachment.

So, being good hosts, we had to tag along on certain days. I went today with them to nus engineering faculty or something. It was quite boring during the first part when we just examined the chips -.- I slept through half of it or something.

During lunch, we ate Macs. The Macs there is cheaper than Macs outside so of course I enjoyed it :D then we went for the second part of the attachment where we got to go into the labs and print our own chips :D

That part was funner cause we got to use cool equipments and wear funny costumes :D

Look at this enormous lab shoes! :D

Mr Kim Moon Soo!!! :D

Anyway, this lab attachment thing was supposed to be for the Koreans according to our school. But, it seems to us as if NUS’s main target was us. They kept advertising their school and programmes nonstop till I got irritated /: Are they really that desperate for students? Don’t they have lots of students trying to enter that faculty? haha whatever, I’m not interested in that field anyway. But the lab part was quite fun :D

Going with them to NTU again tomorrow! Hope it will be more on chemistry or biology! Cause I have no interest in physics at all!!! /:

haha and here are some random pics we took on sunday.

the 4 of us and our budddies! :D

2007-07-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

A POST-OBS POST

It has been 6 days since I left OBS. But sad thing is that, I still haven’t gotten used to civilization. I miss OBS just as much and I still can’t register in my head that I have to get back to reality, or more specifically, go through the routine school life again.

Anyway, Mel and I have discovered something that OBS has done to us. That is, we have become more daring. And it’s not in the good way. We have this weird OBS mindset that no matter what we do, we will never die. So we just do weird things that are, in actual fact, very dangerous. Haha as for what weird things, I will not go into detail. But still, I miss OBS madly!

Okay. So after OBS, we felt a little deprived in terms of food. And we kept rewarding ourselves with nice food :D like on Wednesday, we ate Pastamania and spent over 10bucks per person. The next day, we had Carl’s Jr. in which I spent 15 over too. And we kept eating fast-food! So my allowance is like negative now. And my atm account is depleting madly now.

Oh and today, we went to vivo with some seniors to buy chaky’s farewell present. We walked around at toys “r” us and just as we were about to leave, Mel and I saw tamagotchis! They were all super cute and we wanted them badly! I had a super deprived childhood and I remember around 7 years ago, when I wanted one, my mom didn’t allow! This made me want it even more badly since I have never owned one before! So after much consideration, Mel and I decided to spend $29.95 on a tamagotchi each.

Heres a picture of it. Mel got the greeen one which is super cute too! :D

Call me dumb, childish whatever, but its super cute!!! I hope I do not regret buying it! Mel and I swore not to spend anyhow for the next few weeks until we manage to cover up for the money we spent this week. Yup! This is another thing about OBS. It makes us spend crazily cause we kept thinking that we haven’t spent at all for the past 7 days so we can spend now :D haha all this fun from OBS comes with a price! But it’s definitely worth it! :D

Okay enough of me going crazy. Anyway, KSA people are reaching Singapore tomorrow night! Hope we’ll all have fun :D

Oops and I got to tidy my room for my buddy! HAHAHA

2007-07-11T19:50:00.001+08:00

the school wasted their money sending some lame gays who cant appreciate anything to obs.

i feel sorry for the taxpayer's money.

hurhur. the school should just save the money for people who actually gain something deeper from it (like me! :D) to obs. i guess its more worth it :D

dumb gays! :D

2007-07-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

OMG OBS TOTALLY ROCKS!

i miss OBS badly now!

i had the best 7 days in my life.

the 7 days were short, but the memories will last long.

okay i shall blog about the whole camp in detail even though my middle finger is hurting and infecting badly :D

DAY ONE:

we reported. got into our groups. knew each other better and checked into our nice dorms. it was really luxurious accommodation as compared to last year's tents that were rusty soggy and dirty.

joey, shanti, grace, an, mengyuan, xinyi, molan, lingzi, yanyao, yixian, jonathan, alan, jonas and me. the 14 of us make up KIM SAN :D and it was this peeeps who went through everything with me :D ohhh and Gideon, our super nice instructor tooo!

the first activity of the camp was learning to belay and then went on to climb the indiana :D belaying was fast cause we already learnt it last year during our OBS 5day course. just some revision and then we went off to climb the indiana. indiana fyi is a "ship" they built at the camp for people to climb and do whatever. but it's seldom open for people to climb so we were one of the few who got to climb it :D

anyway being the gay cass, i chionged to be the first to climb and i chose the higher one. haha. obviously i was a little scared before i went up cause noone has been up yet to set the standards. i was doubtful of my abilities but i kept telling myself "i can do it" and being weird again. i keep talking to myself or my belayer(joey) to make sure i keep myself occupied so that i wouldnt be too scared. it did help a lot and when i finally reached, i thought it was okay. and i realised that if i believed in myself, that i can do it, i can really do it :D

then we had dinner, learn to tie cool knots and SLEEP :D

ohyes! and i was spraying insect repellent at myself when a mosquito appeared, i freaked out and started spraying the repellent madly at the mosquito till it flew away! hahaha i didnt know why i did that and the others said i have caused that poor little mosquito to get ostracized by his fellow mosquitoes! haha

DAY TWO:

the day started with pt. pt was okay. much slackier than the one we did at yltc. just to get us refreshed and warmed up for the day i guess. then we had our morning dip which was a routine for everyday. then we had morning circle, and trekking. initially i thought i was like last year, following the map and walk on nicely constructed roads. but no! it wasnt like we have expected at all. we had to trek through the forest where there werent proper paths to walk on. so we had to get rid of the plants that blocked our way to forge out our own path and when we found our first check point, we went "WOW" and started high 5-ing madly in the middle of the forest :D

on the way, we saw many giant spiders which were the size of my palm! and there was this funny leaf like creature that i inferred was called the leaf insect that started crawling madly on my stomach for some weird reason. it was a rare experience that i have never been through in my life and i doubt i will be going through again. finally, we managed to return unhurt :D we were the cool kim san daughters :D throughout the way, i was so clumsy that i almost sprained my ankle several times but eventually i was OKAY :D

then we had a little kayaking. learning to turn left and right, move front and back, do the capsize drill etc. so while we were at shore looking at others try out, joey suddenly told me "cass, got snake" then she pointed and i grabbed her hand and RAN for our lives! hahaha. when we were finally up at shore, jonas held the "snake" up for us to realise that its actually a stick :D LOL! anyway this was to prepare us for our expedition on day six, the day after we come back from our cutter sailing expedition.

then we went on to prepare for our cutter sailing expedition and that was all for the day.

DAY THREE:

we started the day again with pt and morning dip. then we started loading the stuff we needed for the cutter sailing expedition onto the cutter. it was lots of things but when everyone does it together, we did it rather quickly.

we had our lunch before setting off and whooosh! that was the beginning of our cutter sailing expedition :D we learnt the basics of sailing and everyone was blur initially. we were overwhelmed by the weird terms sailors named the stuff on the cutter and blah. haha everyone screamed crazily as if we were dying whenever the boat tilts a little and just panic instead of trying to balance the boat.

our boat was called VIJAYA. i have no idea what it means. guess it's some important indian guy? haha i dont know. our first official task was to paddle our boat towards the buoy when we can secure our boat to it to cook our dinner at shore. i was the helmsman and because of my blurness and sudden lost of sense of direction, the others had to keep rowing because of me ): it took us a long long time before we managed to grab the buoy and i felt really bad though everyone said it wasnt totally my fault. throughout the way, everyone had different ideas and it caused many disagreements and confusion. it got a little heated up and i was freaked out.

but after that, during debriefing, we reflected on our mistakes and talked about how we should improve the next day. i enjoyed that session a lot cause everyone got really serious and sincere about working hard together to improve as a whole. i could see that spirit building up, that bond growing among us.

anyway, the place where we had our dinner was at camp2, i made use of the chance where theres water supply and put my body under the tap. it felt really good but after that i looked like a crazy woman. hahaha

then, the baby avon brought us back to the cutter where we spent our night. i chose a cosy spot underneath and it felt so comfy! the night was wonderful. it felt like i was on a rocking bed. in the middle of the night, there was a sudden strong wave which made the cutter shake so badly that i bounced out of sleep! haha but it was the best night! nice comfy cosy and sweet :D

DAY FOUR:

joey and i chose the last shift for sentry duty which was from 6 to 7 and the person doing the shift before us was supposed to wake us up. but when i opened my eyes, the sea was nice windy and bright and it definitely didnt look like 6am. i woke the whole group up and we realise it was 715am! and so.. i skipped my duty :O

we had our nice breakfast on the boat and had our morning dip again. the tradition for sailing was to go one around the boat and kiss the bow so that we will have good wind for that day. so we did that and we used that opportunity to peee too in the biggest toilet i have used :D but the water pressure was so high that noone could get their pee out! so being the peeee-ful cass, i decided that no matter what i MUST pee! so i grabbed the line at the side of the boat and pulled myself up so that i could pee! and indeed it worked! but once i start, i couldnt stop! one round around the boat before i could stop peeing! haha but it was a super fun experience! :D i bet the fishes down there must be super pleased with their water now since they have an added ingredient from me :P

then we set off on our journey on to sembawang! i was somehow made the helmsman again for i dont know what reason. it was fun cause we got to do most of the things ourselves already with some help from gideon of course. haha then i went to be the dipper which i clinged onto the rope and jump off the bow hoping to use my body weight to pull it down. hahahaa super fun though i still didnt have must strength. haha

and along the way, we kept seeing the police coast guard and it kept slowing down to escort us a little. So I kept saying “omg! My seniors! Im going to be like them next time!” they were so nice to us. Kept staying around to ‘protect’ us and saying hi to us as if there were some VIP on the boat :D

anyway, the wind was in our favour most of the time, so we sailed pretty smoothly. but when there wasnt wind, we had to row. though it was tiring, but somehow i felt happy and i was enjoying it. my body felt soft and i already no more strength but i still wanted to row so i pushed myself and i got so addicted to rowing. it was so fun along the way, we had fun, worked hard together and learnt from our mistake. the china scholars kept singing throughout the way too and i began to like their singing, it was a form of entertainment for us and i bet my chinese has improved from listening to chinese songs nonstop everyday :D

we anchored our cutter at sembawang in the evening and set up our tents at shore. The tents this year were much more advanced and user-friendly :D then we cooked our dinner again. Even maggiemee tasted yummy and I had plenty of it :D haha then we powder-bathed! I felt super prepared cause I brought a big packet of baby wipes for cleaning up and toilet paper which people kept getting from me.

After dinner, mel and I did our business! We couldn’t find the entrenching tool and a cool and ulu enough place to do it so we decided to do it by the sea. We took a poncho and hid in it while we poo-ed into the sea. Mel did it first and I couldn’t stop sniggering cause it looked as if a poncho was floating on the shore releasing poo. Haha then it was mine turn! The poncho was hot and stuffy so I had to do it quick before I suffocate and die! And Eugene kept trying to disturb me! Anyway i poo-ed quite quickly because of my pro skills that I later taught the others. But my poo was stuck in the sand! It refused to float into the sea, so I had to use the toilet paper to push it down! It was so funny and gross! And it took me a long long time before all of it went into the sea. HAHAHA.

After that Eugene couldn’t stop saying I was gross cause I touched shit -.- and he said I smelt of shit! So I checked my slippers to realize that I have actually stepped on DOG POO! It’s definitely not my poo okay, its dog poo cause theres dog poo smell and it stinks like mad! So I had to wash my slippers by the sea again. Hahaha

Our debriefing that night was cool. We did it in the dark on the blue tub. We were all proud of our improvements from the day before and we believed we could do it even better the next day. Then, we went off to sleep and while I was falling asleep, I heard jonathan yelling loudly “People outside! We are trying to sleep in here. Can you all please shut up” or something. Haha he sounded super amusing and I woke up to laugh before continuing my sleep.

At 5, shanti, joey and I woke up for our sentry duty. We thought it would be a boring 1 hour but it turned out to be interesting! Cause we were entertained by the cult activities! Nearby, there were a few people dancing around a fire and shaking bells. We knew immediately that it was the cult cause Gideon had mentioned about it previously. So we just stood there and watch. Then we heard a chicken screaming and then it went silent again. Then we saw some of them strip and went into the sea, as if to dispose off some things. And shortly after the mosque started chanting, they left, at around 6am. Ohh! And I thought I saw them in hoods but joey said I was imagining things! Haha. Anyway, after sentry duty, we went back to have our 15mins sleep!

DAY FIVE:

Being the piggy cass, I woke up at 630 instead of 615! We packed up and had our breakfast. Morning circle was fun. I was the day ic with grace and we had to do the sharing so I shared about my peeing and pooing incident :D

Then we started loading the stuff back onto our cutter. The tide was so low that we could just walk all the way there instead of rowing the baby avon. The water was horrendously gross, only one word for it “SHIT” but it was still fun cause everyone was walking through it together. Haha. Then joey and I volunteered to row the baby avon back to fetch Gideon. Just as we were happily starting to row our first few strokes and coordinating them, we were watched near shore. We were shocked by its suddenly attack so we screamed madly and everyone at shore ran towards us cause they thought we were accidentally washed back. Even Gideon ran over cause he thought we were dying or something! Hahaha. So before we knew it, we were at shore, with just a few strokes of rowing :D

We went back to the cutter and that marked the start of our journey back to camp 1. Gideon was supposed to be invisible that day so we were all on our own. But somehow everyone were so experienced that we were okay without much of his help :D I controlled the main sail for that day and I loved the job! It was rather tiring cause your hand must always be on the ropes pulling and releasing. And sometimes I was too weak to pull it so an invisible hand needed to help me! Hahaha But it was super fun cause im busy all the time and I felt useful and proud of myself :D

Ohh! And im super clumsy that I kept injuring myself. Like the previous day, I kept falling backwards while rowing, and my head bumped into the main sail pole. Then on that day, I was pulling the main sail so hard that I slipped and fell on my ass. But before I could attend to it, I had to get back to position to pull the sail. Haha and I was pulling the main sail so hard that my middle finger and its fingernail split and started bleeding -.- so I quickly put iodine and it sealed up again :D

Along the way, while sailing, mengyuan suddenly exclaimed to me “cass! Your friend!”. Then I turned to see the police coast guard boat hovering around again :D hahaha and it kept appearing like one million times along our way back :D

There were many times in which our boat was tilting so badly that it felt like we were going to capsize anytime. But now, we’ve grown. We no longer screamed and panic when it tilt. Instead, we remained calm and try our best to balance the boat so nothing drastic happened :D oh! And we bumped into a red metal buoy too! It was so freaky we all thought we were going to die! Hahaha but nothing much happened cause alan was a good helmsman who managed to cut down the damage as much as he could.

The wind was so good that we sailed all the way back without rowing at the end. We made it back! All together! The credit goes to none of us cause it was to all of us. We wouldn’t have made it if not for the hard work of everyone. We cooperated well and everyone worked towards a common goal. The bond was growing again, I could feel it.

Anyway, we unloaded the stuff. And that was my last time on VIJAYA. I miss it badly! Then, we went on to have our wonderful bath that we were deprived of for 3 days! It felt wonderful to have your hair not salty and sticky again! Haha After that we all got super high! Analyzing jonathan’s gay behavior and giving him advice on how he can be a man! We talked about jumping on a sandfly and I came up with some “the fish will bite your butt and the sandfly will eat you up!” hahaha

We then appointed our leaders for the kayaking expedition for the next day and they planned out the details for our expedition. I wasn’t looking forward to it at all cause my body was aching madly from sailing so I thought I would die kayaking.

Ohh! Then on the way back to our dorms, my butt started aching madly so I was like “ehh. How come will ache like that?” and I recalled of myself falling down on the boat and I felt a big bump on my ass! So I decided to visit the medical centre for ice pack so that I can recover in time for kayaking expedition. Haha the nurse sniggered at me when I told her about it and anyway the medical centre is like the nicest place in the whole campus cause theres aircon! :D

While waiting for the plan, we stoned in the room and chatted. They started forcing people to share their “love life” -.- and the female china scholars were really cute and innocent! They asked “what is like arh? How do you know you like somebody?” hahaha! And I couldn’t answer it. I thought it just comes naturally? They are really super innocent! Cause they said in china, it was against their school rules to have a relationship (sounds like RV) so they don’t know anything about it! Haha anyway we had lots of fun listening to other people’s story and commenting about it :D

The plan was out and we were told on the stuff to pack. Our kayaking expedition was from the exteme east, heading west, then cut across the island through a swamp, crossing a bridge and a mud bank where we had to lift the kayaks and then out to the sea again and back to camp1. Then, we went to sleeeeeep.

DAY SIX:

Woke up at 555 as usual, did pt and went for jetty jump! I was scared initially but since I have to do it, I must as well do it well and enjoy it. And we were supposed to shout something when we jump so I shouted “TERRA!” and down I went. The tide wasn’t very high so there was a lag time in the air. It felt as if I was flying. Haha it was fun! The only thing I dislike was having all the salt water gushing into my nose. It’s a… weird feeling. Haha

We went back to our dorms to prepare for the kayaking expedition and on the way back, it started pouring heavily. There wasn’t shelter so we were all drenched! And worse still, my wet attire that was supposed to be drying out there was all wet too! But having no other wet attire, I had to change into that gross wet and soggy attire. It was freezing cold and I couldn’t stop shivering!

I shivered through the whole morning circle and finally I decided to go change to a dryer shirt. It felt so much warmer after that and when I went back, the instructors filled their water bottles with boiling hot water for us! Everyone ran towards it like we found some treasure or something.

Our kayaking expedition leaders briefed us on the details and our groupings before setting off. This time, we used a tri-yak instead of a kayak which was just simply 3 instead of 2 people on the boat. Every group had at least one guy except my group! It was just me joey and mel. I was, at first, a bit uncertain of whether we could make it. But since we were grouped like that, we must believe that we can and push ourselves! Girls can still do well without guys! That’s the girl power!

Many people were worried about us and they kept asking us if we wanted to change or something. Even joey was unsure if we can make it and I remembered her saying “be practical, cass”. But still I refused to change. I wanted to prove that girls can do as well without guys if we persevere and push ourselves!

So, we set off enthusiastically! And we realized that we could turn very very easily because of our weight! We were the lightest boat cause I was 42kg, joey was 43kg, mel was 45kg. plus the 6kg of water bottles and the total weight of food.. let’s say around 1kg. There was only a total weight of 137kg on our tri-yak! We progressed well and everyone kept encouraging us, asking if we were okay etc. They were all really nice and kept saying, “Go girl power!” That made us even more determined to push ourselves! Although we were all aching and tired, we kept paddling. We made sure at least someone was paddling at every second. So we took turns to drink, eat and rest. We kept making sure that we were near the front of the fleet cause we knew that once we fell behind, we will lose our momentum.

After one hour of kayaking, we reach the opening of the swamp! Everyone rafted up to rest, pee and eat. But when the first person took out his/her food, a few dogs came running towards us from the shore. Our boats were all very very near the shore! And dogs are nice friends! Once they found out theres food around, they shouted loudly to inform their friends! So more and more dogs started appearing from the forest. They all looked alike; all black, skinny and fierce. Then someone shouted, “Dogs can swim!” and everyone panicked. Some people started letting go and tried breaking raft cause we were drifting nearer and nearer to shore.. like just 1m away. But I held on and said “don’t break raft, at least we have more people when we raft up!” then, the Gideon and Bibi came to our rescue! They went super near the dogs and tried SHOOing them away! Though they still stayed there, they didn’t dare growl loudly at us anymore. So we decided to get out of that place as soon as possible. No more resting, peeing or eating. My biscuit was still stuck in my mouth when I kayak frantically away. Haha the dogs chased us for a distance before they fully disappeared and that was when we dared to open our food :D

We kayaked through the swamp and finally reached this muddy bridge where we had to get down and move the boat across the bridge before we could carry on. The guys got down first and some of them had their shoes stuck in the mud till they had to pull it out till their hands went BLACK! Black as in REALLY BLACK! We slowly moved up the boats and had our lunch on the bridge before continuing. There was a drink stall there so there was a toilet! Okay maybe toilet sounds misleading. It doesn’t have a toilet bowl. It just a small area with 4 wooden planks forming a cubicle and a hole. So your pee or poo goes through the hole into the sea! :D mel peeeed there! And I was sniggering at her when I saw the pee coming down into the water!

We saw many NJ people cycling pass the bridge too! They were having some cycling adventure thingy and it was just so heartwarming to see them even though we didn’t know most of them. Some people just shouted out “hello! We are from NJ too!”

Haha okay so we continued our journey. The water was so shallow that we kept getting stuck in the mud! And when we do, we used our girl method to get ourselves out of it. We “1 2 3” pushed our butts so we could push the boat away from the mud! And it worked several times! But there was once when we got stuck so badly that it couldn’t move at all! So we yixian came out and pushed us out! He’s super strong! Both the girls in his boat were sleeping most of the time and he was the only one kayaking but he was still one of the first!

We saw lots of funny creatures in the swamp. Like a monitor lizard, many many mudskippers, some funny fish that bounces out of water. One of it flew pass Eugene’s hair and he went nuts! HAHAHA

We got kind of lost in the swamp cause we never went pass the mud bank which we were supposed to and we realized that we were moving against the current. But we just kept kayaking. When we finally saw the sea, everyone went WOW and heaved a sigh of relief! We rested awhile there, washed off the mud and some people peeed! Then, we happily continued our journey and everyone got more positive again! I became HIGH again and kept talking a lot of rubbish! We kept on leading and maintaining the lead cause we didn’t want to fall behind and pull everyone else backwards so we kept kayaking till we went too fast that yile kept asking us to stop.

As we were already on the open sea, there was always backwash. Then this tanker came by and everyone stopped to prepare for it so that we won’t capsize. Then Allan held on to us and we were like “thanks! 2 boat together wont capsize so easily” then when it was over, when we were almost going to thank him, he suddenly pushed us backwards! Making us one of the last!!! So we were pissed and decided to regain our position again! We kayaked even harder. Not fast strokes like the others, but slow steady, long deep strokes! :D Awhile later, we got back our leading position and YAY! Haha We maintained that position throughout the entire journey back. And to entertain ourselves, we even raced Gideon but he was such a pro that even by himself, he didn’t lose to us!

When we finally caught sight of camp1, everyone got even more motivated and paddled even faster. But still, we reached there first :D HAHAHA GIRL POWER! When I finally got off the kayak, I still couldn’t believe it. No one thought we could do it, but we really made it back, alive and leading all the way :D and we weren’t really tired, weren’t dead at all :D I proud of myself! Im proud of the girls! GIRL POWER!!!! I believed I could do it! And I kept telling myself that I can, so I really DID IT! :D

We cleaned up the kayaks and bathed! :D had dinner and the rest of the night was rather slacky! We packed and realized that it was our last night there ): then, we were supposed to have some chatting session again but before I knew it, I dozed off! Joey too. Then mel came to look for me and we talked awhile and suddenly, I didn’t get a reply when I asked mel a question. I turned over and saw a pig sleeping peacefully on my bed. Haha I packed a bit more to find myself falling asleep too! At around 1am, mel realized that she was sleeping at the wrong dorm so she got up and rolled back to her dorm. Haha I was semi conscious at that time so I sniggered at her. Lalala

DAY SEVEN:

Before we knew it, it was the last day of OBS ): woke up at 555 again then had pt. for some reason, I was made to lead pt for that day. So I led. I was blur and kept forgetting this and that. Hahaha but still it was fun :D Then we had jetty jump again! This time, the tide was higher so there wasn’t the lag time in air but still it was quite fun :D

Then we change into our climbing attire and went to climb the funny structure with those logs, tyres, ropes, rockwalls. Mine was the easy one and I did it with joey. We reached the top shortly and we didn’t know we finished already so we stoned there -.-

I wanted to try the DDD which was the parallel logs one but there wasn’t enough time!!! ): theophila completed it easily because of her long legs!!!

Anyway we had our last lunch there and went to the cool room called elbrus for final debrief. IT WAS A GREEEN ROOM :D we had our debrief and everyone shared about their highest moment, lowest moment and lessons learnt.

Then we got back our valuables. The moment I got back my phone I got sian. Cause it means reality again. Back to worrying about things and no more carefree obs anymore ): no more following a tight schedule nicely crafted for you but planning your own time now. Responsibilities back to me again. SIAN ohh and everyone was so bonded now but we have to get back to routine again ):

Then we bought the shirts till I got broke! I bought one GREEN one and a white polo tee :D and then we took the bumboat and byebye to my beautiful ubin ): I didn’t want to leave that place and now I still miss it badly! ):

THE END.

Anyway here are the stuff I shared during the final debrief:

Highest moment – it happens throughout the whole camp. I get high easily! Like first day was being able to climb the Indiana. Second day was trekking. Third day was sleeping on the cutter! Forth day was peeing in the sea and pooing by the shore and everyone working well together. Fifth day was doing the main sail and bathing! :D Sixth day was believing in myself and completing the expedition!

Lowest moment – when I was a lousy helmsman causing people to waste so much energy because of me. Though they don’t blame me, I still felt bad. But that only lasted for awhile (: and also the last day when we were going to leave ):

Lessons I learnt -

there’s no boundaries to a person’s abilities.

There is no such thing as “I can only do this...” or “I cannot do this…” because you never know what you can really achieve till you put in all your effort and try it. Believing that you can.

Believe you can do it, cause you really can!

Just trust yourself that you can do it and keep telling yourself that! And whoosh! You can really do it! I didn’t know it was so magical! If you keep saying you cant, the sad truth is that you really cant. So believe you can and tell yourself that! :D be confident and trust yourself! :D

This is what I always hear people saying and I have never believed it until OBS when I experienced it myself. It’s just so magical. I guess people only learn such things through experiencing it themselves. No matter how many times you tell someone, it doesn’t register into them if they hadn’t experienced it. And thanks to obs I have finally understood this and i think I will be a more confident person from now on :D I have learnt to believe that I am strong and I can do anything I want as long as I trust and persevere! :D

I love OBS! And I miss it so much! I am currently suffering from obs withdrawal symptoms and kept thinking what I was doing exactly one week ago! I hate civilization, I hate reality! I woke up this morning and started doing the 5 basic exercises we do for pt during obs! I love OBS! I don’t mind the leaf insects, I don’t mind the waking up early, I don’t mind the weird food! I want to go back to obs! Hahahaha

Okay. That was a really long long post. Fyi, there is a total of 5575 words in this entry :D

haha this is us with Gideon when we reach punggol jetty! Notice the smiles on all our faces (:

2007-07-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

bought a lot of clothes this weekend :D

anyway going off for obs tomorrow for 7days!

miss me okay! :D

anyway my parents asked me to lodge a complain to Comfort, so here's the email the sent.

Dear Sir/Madam,

This mail is to feedback to you on the service i received from one of the Comfort taxi drivers on 29 June 2007, 4.29pm.

I was stranded near the side of the expressway (outside Normanton Park) and so i flagged for a cab but to no avail after 30minutes. So, i decided to call your company for a cab. The operator told me that a cab will be arriving for me in 10minutes. However, after 10minutes, there was still no sign of the cab. Shortly after, i received a call from the taxi driver. The moment i picked up, he shouted rudely. "Where are you?! I cannot find you!" So, i offered to walk towards where he was. But he replied impatiently saying, "No no! i cannot find you. i don't want to fetch you. Go call another cab yourself"

Because of that, i had to walked for around 2km to the next nearest bus stop. And i have lost my trust for cabs too. I dare not use the dial-a-cab service anymore for fear that i would meet such taxi driver again.

This is just feedback to you and i hope you will look into the matter. I sincerely do not wish to see others having a similar experience as me.

Thank You,
Cassandra Cheong

2007-06-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

hello! today was an eventful day! :D

it was the last day of assessment week finally!
but the excitement and joy i experienced wasnt as much as i expected. in fact, it didnt really felt like anything to me.

physics ended at 915. paper was okay. hope i pass.

haha then went to listen to some stuff ivan wanted to teach before he really disappear. one cool thing we did was to visit the "ceiling" of lt5 to inspect the switches.

and i was so excited! cause we get to climb up the funny ladder.

so coool! we should have secret meetings or whatever hear next time :D

anyway i had a queensway adventure today. i am really really dumb! and i ended up wasting an hour plus walking under the sun in my black CO tee, waterless.

i randomly took a bus from the rv busstop and i thought it would take me to some bus stop with to change a bus to toapayoh. but before i know it the bus went onto the highway and whooooosh it was heading towards... i think bukit panjang? whatever. i sense something wrong so i quickly got off the bus. i walked around, and realise i was stranded in the middle of a highway. so i tried to flag for a cab. but after 30mins, i was still standing there. so i called for a cab. 10mins later, the taxi driver called me and said "where are you?! i cannot find you! i dont want to fetch you already! you go called for another cab lar!" he was so fierce i freaked out! so now i was only left with my legs to travel. so i kept walking and walking along the highway for a long long long time before i finally reached a bus stop! haha

when i turned back, i couldnt see where i started out from. that was how far i walked. and i was wearing black, without any water! my sweat were like PEARLS trickling down madly and i was dehydrated! haha but i survived! good exercise :D

this was how empty the road was. how to get a cab like that?

empty again.

thankfully singapore is a clean and green city so i can at least get to enjoy the greenery along the way! haha

2007-06-28T23:55:00.001+08:00

okay. 2104 was as expected. i really wish i can pass.
but.. the number of marks i did just didnt add up to make a passing mark.
i left out this question completely. didnt even have time to read it.

2103 was manageable.

hope i dont die.

haha physics tomorrow. studied with mel in the afternoon to realise i couldnt do most of the questions in the tutorial. but im super NOT motivated to do anything.

the moment i reached home after tuition, i watch "wonderful life" again. its really really nice! okay anyway. cant wait for the end of tomorrow :DDDD

GO CASS!!!

2007-06-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

i feel D.E.A.D.
i have said the word "die" for the number infinity time of the day.
i'm not supposed to be blogging now.

my maths is so screwed.
im supposed to be practising questions now.
but i dont have any motivation to do it
AHHH
and worse still i dont even know how to do most of the questions!!!

okay im dead.
i cant afford to fail anymore.

should i sleep now? or continue trying on questions i can never solve?

i want tomorrow to be over soon. if only there's a skip button!!!
but i dont want tomorrow to come so soon yet.

ahh i dont know!!!

2007-06-27T16:25:00.000+08:00

the feeling of canceling out subjects from my mugging timetable day by day is extremely nice :D
4 down. 3 more to go!

go cass! :D

chinese today was okayish. but sitting down 2 hours was indeed intolerable. i was fidgeting non-stop. and felt mentally drained after the paper. like my brain just ran a marathon. and i had low blood sugar after that that i almost fainted on the way home -.-

anyway math's tomorrow. i just woke up from my nap! must start practising some questions already. can't afford to fail ma2104 again. haha

today's morning assembly can be considered a flop! but dont worry! its NOT OUR FAULT. its the crazy old system. after all, its a learning experience so jiayou pa! :D

2007-06-26T21:14:00.001+08:00

hello! chem was quite screwy for me today!

i was super enthusiastic about doing the paper until i saw the questions and i started skipping those that i didnt feel like doing. when i finally flipped till the end of the paper, i have only done like one questions other than the MCQs?

haha so finally managed to do those questions with great pain and i could feel my brain juice leaking out. but one whole 8mark question was GONE. cause i couldnt get started so WHOOSH byebye to it.

hope i can at least get a B for it. haha.

but still i love CHEM :D

its 高级华文 tomorrow and its the full paper! 2 x 2hours! i think my butt will really rot. since i dont usually take such long papers. and i really wonder how i am going to take exams in ip3/4. the papers are like 3-4 hours long /:

okay hope i dont die during chinese tmr :D

2007-06-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

hello! 2down. 5 more to go!
geog and la were okay. at least i survived through the test.

hope chem will be do-able tomorrow :D
DC circuits are GAY but COOL.

goodluck to everyone out there mugging! hang on :D

haha bought this new 电子词典 for 高级华文试卷 on wednesday cause my old one died on me. super scared i flop it ):

haha look at my geog notes :D RV post-its are cool :D

okay. cass must hang on :D just 4 more days :D and GOODLUCK everyone :D

2007-06-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

hello! i didnt step out of the house for the whole of today!

for breakfast, i woke up to find nothing suitable to consume for breakfast, so i only drank a cup of milk. tried to mug abit of chem and found myself hungry at noon.

so this is what i had for lunch

haha miserable! cause i couldnt find anything else edible at home!

haha okay enough of complains. was looking through the photos in my cam and found these photos of mel and i preparing for PA handover camp. since its over now, i can finally disclose the photos :D

haha 2 computers at work. one was in charge of doing the captions for the photos. the processed photos are then transferred to the other computer which was in charge of compiling it into the video. sounds like factory work?

the already done presents for the seniors :D we are pleased with them :D

more. nice? :D

:O hahaha

haha. majority of the seniors have yet to collect their handover presents ): hope they'll like it when they receive it :D and the video kind of became lousy on the actual day so we'll make a nice copy for everyone when we have time :D

2007-06-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

haha! look! i havent been updating for such a long time!
isn't it good? proves that i have been a good student and mugging hard this few days :D

trying hard now cause i just realised i didnt have any more time. haha! got to at least pass all the papers this time!

anyway! after more than 10days after yltc, i have just experienced the effects of it. my funny bites reappeared! this time, larger and itchier. so i went to see the GP and he concluded that those are sandfly bites! so i had to either take a jab or eat medicine and apply cream. i chose the latter. haha fine im scared okay :D

its getting better although still as gross looking! hahaa people give me weird looks when im out. as if im suffering from aids or something! hahaa

and! my skin is beginning to peel only now! black skin just keep coming out! i feel like a cockroach! moulting nonstop! hahaha

mugmugmug! i cant wait for ass week to come :D cause once it's ass week, it'll get slackier and funner :D

okay off to sleep! :D byebyebye!

2007-06-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be, Friends Forever

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this club
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for all of us

So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

i am still coming to terms with the fact that they are really leaving. and it's so difficult. we have grown so attached this past year. all the stuff we have done together. i just cannot imagine how it is like without them, on our own, with a new batch of people. although the new batch are nice people too. but the feeling's just different. just weird. just i dont know. i dont know what the feeling is but its just different. saying goodbye is part and parcel of life but its still difficult. i hate it from every year i have to go through such things. i hate it when theres parting but this is life. i hate it to know that i have to go through something like that again next year and something even worse next next year.

but i can't leave like that forever. i must live out of the past and look towards the future. what will change even if i keep thinking about the past forever? why not use the energy on something i can affect more?

yup! i must look towards the future! whats past is already the past. they will just be kept close to my heart, those happy memories, those learning experiences, those wonderful people i have met. and those negative ones will all go into my recycle bin.

now what i can do is to make the best out of this coming year and make sure i will have wonderful memories again after this year.

CASS! stop being retarded and emotional! they will still be there! and i must fulfill my promise to them! :DDDDDDD lalala

its a mixed feeling i guess. sad that they are leaving, happy and excited to work with new excos.

i dont know. im just weird. :D

2007-06-15T11:24:00.000+08:00

falala. yesterday was pa handover.
the exact same thing like last year was happening all over again.
same venue same format.
just the people receiving the responsibility were passing down the responsibility.

although this one year was filled with laughter, tears and many many experiences. after we gone through it, it feels really short. it felt like it was just yesterday when kayhow handed over to shihui.

i love the 06/07 batch. we came in together, had trainings together, stoned together, mugged together, learnt together, experienced many things together and grew together. but now, they are just leaving us like that ): i told myself that i must not cry. cause parting is just part and parcel of life and they will still be around anyway. i controlled my tears through the video, through mingxuan's speech. but when i saw them handing over, it just struck me so hard that "yes they are really leaving" and my tears just couldnt stop flowing out like a tap. it was super mahlu okay! ahhh hahaha and i really didnt want them to leave. i think i went nuts at that moment.

anyway, nows a new phase for everyone remaining in pa. each and every single of us have just gained much more responsibility in the cca. and we must all work hard for ourselves, for our senior, for pa and for nj!

jiayou excos! especially zhiping and meowzars! zhiping! remember what you promised me okay! and meowzars! you can do it! i really look forward to working with the new exco cause they all seem interesting. hahaha and i will learn from you guys, work well with you guys, share with you guys my experience and... aiyah i will just do my best for the club and for the school :D

i will remember my promise to shihui mama! and my passion for pa will never die! cause passion starts with pa. hahaha. anyway 06/07 batch will always occupy an important place in my heart. you guys were my role model this past year and will still be my role model in years to come. jiayou in whatever you do in future and hope pa will always be in your heart.

and im super happy theres pa outing tomorrow! :D lalala will upload more photos when i get them from mel.

jiayoujiayoujiayou!
cause we're all a part of this small and cosy family :D

2007-06-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

hello! just 2 days of rest from yltc and tomorrow its PA camp!

trainings will be fun cause i enjoy them. but this year, i will be training others. hope i can do a good job! but thinking about the handover part, and i got sad and dreaded it. okayokay not getting emo. will be emo after the camp.

miss me during my camp okay! :D

anyway heard this song and thought it sounded quite pleasant. and guess what! i felt as if my chinese improved by leaps and bounds just by being able to read the lyrics! its really cool! i think we should all read chinese lyrics to improve our chinese :D

here it is! try reading, be cheena like me and feel like you have improved! :D

Love Story - 范逸臣

爱的故事有很多
你一定听过
她们说
最美的爱情像湖泊
美的忍不住停留
而任性的风
吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落
放开手往北方走
留下伤心的树独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁
看今夜的流星
划过了天际
笑我的心
我无法再冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

--

anyway! miss me okay! and hope i have fun this camp :D

2007-06-10T02:24:00.000+08:00

hello! was blog-hopping and saw the posts of many people who went for the camp so i was inspired to write a bit about it too! :D

basically this was what happened in the 5 days.

Monday (day1) :
checked into changi adventure centre
ice breakers
team building games

Tuesday (day2) :
PT
rafting that failed to launch out of campsite.
slacking
oops what else did we do? :O

Wednesday (day3) :
PT
kayaking to east coast food centre
kayak back
outdoor cooking competition

Thursday (day4) :
PT
rock climbing
zipline
abseiling
high elements
alumni talk
cheers! and party with srjc!
ended at 2plusAM

Friday (day 5) :
started at 3AM
ran 10km!
packed up
cleaned toilets!
back to NJ
back home
SLEEP

yup! thats basically all that happened that 5 days. may have missed out some things though. haha weirdly enough, i was counting down to breaking camp everyday but when the day really comes, i sort of miss the camp and dont want it to end so soon.

anyway. the thing i enjoyed most about the camp was probably cheering, cheering and lots of cheering! it felt like this year's orientation again. cheering non stop with all my might! backstreet boys added to the fun too! :D

and guess the thing that left the greatest impression for me is the toilets! the toilet cubicles that can't be locked. the toilet bowls that can't be flushed. the shower that will choke up and flood till your ankle when you bathe. the slippers that will float away when you lift your feet. the pantyliners and pads that will float into your cubicle from out of nowhere and the creepy crawlies that will appear in the water. it was a memorable experience! not really bad cause it was quite fun though! hearing people scream when they see things they dont want to. hahaha

my chaotar skin is peeling off! and i have cool tanlines! that i created myself :D but the millions of bites. ahh. haha. shall not complain about that anymore since i have already done so in the previous entry.

the running and exercising! the 10km! though our group came in last (i think). we enjoyed ourselves. pushing one another. thanks for pushing me POOH BEAR! you guys rocked! thanks for not giving up on me! and i bet we ran at least 6km! haha. and the morning runs! thanks to backstreet boys for singing nonstop when all of us are breathless!

POOH BEAR AND MENON! we were the best self-appointed buddy group! sweat together, cheered together, carried rafts together, washed toilets together! :D

as for activities, i enjoyed those on day4 the most! rock-climbing! i aimed for that GREEEN one to end off! and i made it :D twenty ONE TWO THREE FOUR TERRA ALL THE WAY! :D

and the teambuilding thingy was nice too! taught me what a true leader should be like and i saw many in the camp! ohhh! and guess what! SRJC said they think our combine house cheer is really nice and asked us to teach them! :D so we made a combine one with them! :D

it goes like that:

one two three four AERIUS all the way!
five six seven eight AQUA all the way!
nine ten eleven twelve IGNIS all the way!
thirteen fourteen fifteen sixteen LIGNUM all the way!
seventeen eighteen nineteen twenty SOLARIS all the way!
TWENTY ONE TWO THREE FOUR TERRA ALL THE WAY!
twenty five six seven eight SR all the way!
ONE ONE ONE ONE JC ALL THE WAY! :D

ohh! and i remember the alien cheer that the camp instructors taught SR and NJ! they said only we know it! it was super funny and cute! :D

the last night was the most memorable! we cheered till everyone's throat went soar! it was only 89 of us but it sounded as if the whole NJ was there! :D we did mass dance too! using someone's handphone to amplify it through the loudspeaker! SORRY THE LIBERTY COULDNT WORK ): ohh! and we did the SR college dance with them too! it was a cute dance! and quite easy to pick up :D the SR people were super high and friendly too! hahaha

i dont think i regret sacrificing so many things to go for this camp! :D it was all worth it!!!

yoohoo! my cooool yltc cert :D

youyouyou! :D but i still don't know what's your name!!!

2007-06-10T00:49:00.001+08:00

ahhh! save me ): i have millions of bites all over from some unknown creature and nothing seems to make it disappear!

i have tried all sorts of creams and ate funny medicines this few days but nothing seems to work any single bit! ):

i guess if this goes on, my skin will rot from all the scratching! and worse still, it multiplies by the days till even my fingers are filled with them!

ohh and anyway i think i really am going nuts! really really nuts! such a feeling that i havent experienced before! im becoming like a pearlyn neo! or even worse case than her! haha! lalala hoping for some miracle to happen everyday :D but it sometimes does serve as a motivation :D

what's your name??? :P

2007-06-09T09:37:00.000+08:00

hello! i am back!

haha i had fun i guess. it was like another orientation part for me.

rushing my LA essay now so i wont talk too much about it. will update on the camp when i am free-er :D

and i like the yltc shirt cause it says at the back "leadership is action, not position" :D

2007-06-03T16:42:00.000+08:00

hello!

packing for tomorrow's YLTC. hope it will be 5 fun and fulfilling days for me! :D but i'm sure i'll miss my bed, all the good food, civilization and everyone!

wish me luck okay! :D and MISS me! :P

will update on my adventures over there when i return! :D

2007-06-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

i am traumatized.

i was so traumatized i froze in front of the computer.

i was so traumatized i tossed and turned and still couldnt sleep last night.

i was so traumatized i fell off the chair 6 times today.

eternal summer. gay.

2007-05-30T21:37:00.001+08:00

meowzars is a meano! hahaha

write 300 words is you lousy okay! not my fault! :D

lalala

2007-05-30T19:12:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

cass is annoying and short.
her house is extremely NOT conducive for doing work.
i have been doing MI essay since 4pm and have only written 300 words.
snarls.

MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW AND CASS HASNT BOUGHT ME A PRESENT.
*STABZXZXZX*

i shall continue helping Africa now.
byebyebye.

cass is annoying and short.
*grins*

2007-05-29T22:46:00.001+08:00

THIS WHOLE POST IS GOING TO BE IN CAPS SO PARDON ME
I AM PISSED

THIS IS THE WORST HOLIDAY I EVER HAD. I HATE YLTC. BECAUSE OF IT, I HAVE SO LITTLE TIME THAT I DONT THINK I CAN EVEN COMPLETE MY ASSIGNMENTS DUE IN THE MIDST OF HOLIDAYS.

AND STRAIGHT AFTER HOLS IS ASSESSMENT WEEK THAT I HAVENT STARTED MUGGING FOR YET AND WONT HAVE TIME TO.

IF I FLOP THIS TIME, THATS THE END OF ME.

I JUST FEEL LIKE... CRYING NOW. GAY!

OKAY FINE. I AM PISSED PISSED PISSED.

2007-05-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

hello! meowzar's 16th is this thursday!

and im helping her think of dinner venue!

for jojo's birthday last year, we went to cartel.

for niggs birthday this year, we went newyorknewyork.

haha so where else should we go this time?

can't think of any nice place currently.

anyway long time since we last went out. cant wait! :D

ohh and i finished my MI this morning! :D super satisfied :D

2007-05-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

hello! i saw my shihui mama's subnick and i got sad!

so i decided to blog!

ahh! i dont want handover camp to be so soon! before i know it, they are going to be gone! ): it seems as if they just took over. ahhh i dont like!

I WILL MISS EVERYONE BADLY!

I WILL MISS MY SHIHUI MAMA LIKE MAD ):

okay save all the emo-ness to after handover camp! ): ahhh i dont wan!

parting is shit. why is there parting in life? so many many many partings in life ):

2007-05-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

hello! went to watch aristal yesterday.
it was... beautiful! all the dances were wonderful.

especially the last item, indian dance syf. they were really goood. and it just shows how they got the gold with honours. it made it feel so inspired to join indian dance! haha

but ngee ann is weird. i prefer ucc. anyway we gave meowzars cinq fleurs. :D im sure she loves them.

and im reminded of performing on stage! ahhh! hahahaha

okay going to start looking at my mi essay. its due on 31st and i havent even seen the questions!

2007-05-21T23:18:00.001+08:00

omgosh. im nuts. 3rd post in a day.
saw this on shihui's blog so decided to do it. haha i realised most of my answers are rather similar to her :O

RED IS ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
haha. no.

2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?
me?

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
yes!

4. Is anyone mad at you?
haha i think so. i annoy people easily /:

5. Are you usually mad?
not really. i complain a lot though

6. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
not sure. both? haha

ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
haha no ):

2. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?:
pa handover camp. not really excited lar. instead i dread it ):

3. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?:
haha bank in my money first :D (im paranoid)

4. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
time

YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY

1. Name: Cassandra Cheong Pei Shan

2. Birthday: 26th September 1991

3. What's your main goal in life?
to be happy! :D

4. Do you want to have children?
haha yup! :D

5. When do you want to die?
when i'm prepared /:

GREEN IS OPINIONS

1. Are you against gay marriage?
YES

2. Lower the drinking age?
haha. i dont really care.

3. Capital Punishment?
depends

4. Abortion?
it really depends on the situation

BLUE IS LOVE

1. Do you love someone?
yup! lots of :D like the one i got this quiz from and many many more :D

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
haha yup! :D

3. Do you believe in Love?
yes :D

PURPLE IS Q& A's

Q: how many beds did you lay in today?
one?

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
white

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
sleep :D

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
super little. im broke!

Q: Is Tom on your Top friends list?
haha. no /:

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
tonnes of notes.

Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed?
uhh i forgot.

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
haha my blog, pa blog, shihui's blog, google

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
no

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
not really. im a healthy girl :D

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
uhh i dont want to remember being sad :D

PINK IS LAST

1. Person you saw:
my mom? :D

3. Movie you watched in cinema:
uhh. thats really long ago. i cant rmb!

4. Song you listened to:
emotions. haha im not emo okay!

5. Person you talked on the phone with:
meowzars

6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone?
oops. no

GRAY IS TODAY

1. What are you doing right now?
this quiz? /:

2. What are you doing tonight?
sleep duh!

3. What are you going to eat?:
haha plain water? :D

BROWN IS TOMORROW

1. Is:
tuesday

2. Are you looking forward to it?
not really. theres chinese tutorial and preparation for mi debate after that. then got to work on GC career chart and go ri

3. Are you going to laugh?
for what?

2007-05-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

i am super inefficient again today, as usual. I'm still staring at my IH essay. and i have so many random thoughts in my mind. so i decided to write them down. haha.

1. Brand's chicken essence really works!
i just had one and i feel so much more energetic! :D

2. I want to go AMK hub's fairprice!
okay i sound like an auntie. but seriously, supermarkets are nice place to shop in and i like that place! :D

3. I miss having that strange dream that day and i want to continue it!
niggarm's sms that morning cut my story when it reached the part that i enjoyed most!

4. I like to sleeep!
okay. who doesn't like to sleep? i'm not a pig okay!

5. I am happy! :D
i think i am. at least im not emo :D haha i need to make sure i stay happy so that i can be there for the emo people around me!

6. I miss my shihui mama, meowzars, niggs and jojo!
although i just met them on saturday and niggs yesterday!

7. I dont like assignments.
Although i like to mug.

8. I want to join the police force!
i still can't decide whether i want to be a gynaecologist or policewoman. my dad is quite supportive of me being a police though! :D he was telling me the various kinds of police i can be :D

9. I am hungry!
maybe you can't call that hungry. cause i feel like eating. the feeling of having food going through your mouth through your throat. but.. i cant count how many meals i had today. im becoming a pig really soon. or rather, im already one!

10. I wonder what sexuality education lesson will be like tomorrow.
and i dont really look forward to it. haha. i know JOJO will be extremely excited about it though :P

okay. that was 10 random thoughts going through my mind. there are much more i'm sure just that i couldnt catch them. so you can see how distracted i am! wish me luck in the ih essay :D

2007-05-21T12:07:00.000+08:00

hello! i am currently working on my ih essay that's due tomorrow. i didn't know about it until today!

Anyway, saw this quote while researching so i thought i should put it down here.

"Pessimism leads to weakness; optimism to power" -William James

"Success is never final and Failure never fatal. It's courage that counts." -George F.Tilton

haha. This quotes make me feel much much better :D And i'm a happy girl! :D i will be optimistic so that i will be even more powerful! :D hahaha.

okay. now it's time for my ih essay again. I had a very unproductive weekend. Slept, eat and watched tv all day long. haha but it feels so... RELAXING :D

jiayou cass! jiayou shihui mama! i dont want to see a sad mama ): and jiayou everyone! :D

ohyah was looking for photos to be used for the pa handover07 powerpoint. then i saw this...

almost one year has passed just like that. i will really miss you guys! the 06/07 batch that i came in with, worked with, learned with, slacked with and had fun with. okok. i dont want handover camp to be so soon ):

2007-05-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

hello! sorry for not updating for such a long time! i was too busy or rather too lazy to update cause i had other things to do.

lala the suntec management will give us a reply by tuesday evening. if it's through, my ldp follow-up project will really go big!

ohh anyway it was so weird yesterday. i only slept for like 4 or 5 hours the night before. but surprisingly in school, i wasnt tired at all. Didnt doze off in the middle of any lessons like i usually do. my eyes were wide open all the time and i was super energetic.

The photos below are taken during physics lesson. Ms ong was busy writing on the board, either ignoring what the class is doing, or shes so absorbed in her teaching that she doesnt notice whats wrong.

look at the number of people sleeping. in the picture, there's chuyun, mufeng, yanshan, louisa, joey. And thats not all. my lousy camera couldnt take the whole classroom but what i can recall is that zile, shanti and avril were sleeping too.

haha. 50& of the people in this picture are sleeping. Im really surprised i was actually awake to take such photos. and notice the top right hand corner of the photo. HUNG IS SLEEPING! the ever-attentive and studious hung is actually sleeping through a lesson! haha

haha. zzzzzzzzzzzz.

haha look at the sad life of an ip2 student. everyone is suffering from lack of sleep that we just doze off during lessons, unknowing that people are taking photos and teachers can't even be bothered to wake us up. I guess everyone has eyebags like me! :D my eyebags appeared only after i entered IP! haha

yay. no school on monday! :D and i cant wait for the holidays to come! :D hope yltc will be fun. promised my shihuimama that i will go with an open mind :D ohh and hope she is HAPPY :D

2007-05-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

omg. im so pissed. typed a super long post just now and blogger went nuts. in short, my fingers are sore and the skin is turning hard but im happy cause this is caused by too much practice of my liuqin :D

ohh. and i missed played in an orchestra when i heard njco playing in lt5 just now. it has been almost a year and a half that i have not played with a group of people. may consider joining CO but will leave it to the end of this year to decide. haha cause Mr Seetoh wants me to get a decent grade first in case and embarrass him. haha. i regret for refusing to take the graded exams for 6 years till last year. cause i feel so noob when people ask me about my grade. haha. hope i can makeit for grade 5 this year.

argh!! idiotic blogger. i had so much to say but my fingers are too sore to type them! still, im happppppppy! hahaha. and i love my liuqin!!! i think im really nuts over it! im thinking and talking about it every single second! omg.

and i realise liuqin players will never have nice fingers. cause we have to keep cracking them. haha

and hope my shihui mama get well sooon. sorry for making you laosai! :D

also, goodluck to njco for their SYF tomorrow! :D

2007-05-07T14:30:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm going nuts about those blogthings quizes. and i'm far too lazy to blog about college day although i have quite a lot to talk about. okay here's one of the quiz i took.

Your Brain is Green

Of all the brain types, yours has the most balance.
You are able to see all sides to most problems and are a good problem solver.
You need time to work out your thoughts, but you don't get stuck in bad thinking patterns.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about the future, philosophy, and relationships (both personal and intellectual).

What Color Is Your Brain?

haha! yay! i'm damn happy! lalala. cause my brain is greeen! GREEN rocks! cause green = terra and terra rocks! :D lol

You Are 42% Feminine, 58% Masculine

You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides.
You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you.
You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

ohno. another to say i'm more masculine /:

Your Inner Blood Type is Type O

You are outgoing, gregarious, and well loved.

And it's a good thing you're super charming...

Because you also tend to be a bit flaky!

Your confidence gets your far, and you always speak your mind.

You are most compatible with: O and AB

Famous Type O's: John Lennon and Elvis

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

lalala! am i biologically blood type O too! :D

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

gosh. 3rd try to prove that i am not boyish but it turns out that i really am ):

2007-05-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

haha! saw this 2 tests on jojo's blog so i decided to take it.

and this is what they said of me!

You Are 84% Happy

It's unlikely that you know anyone happier than you.
You know how to be happy, no matter what life throws at you.

How Happy Are You?

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

shit. why am i more male than female?!

2007-05-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

hello! hahaha. was stoning at the bus stop today. it was quite quiet and my ipod suddenly started playing "because of you".

haha. havent listen to that song for a super long time. and after listening to it again this time, i realised its lyrics are really very true. Although it's kind of old already, but i dont get sick of it. It is rather emo though but it really makes me think.

the "you" in the song for me, represents many many things. Looking back, when i was younger, i didnt care about anything. wasn't scared about many things. dont consider so much and of course i was happier. haha but after having experienced so much more things this past few years, things were different.

haha. the lyrics is really... hahaha. and i think i am being a bit like that now. i dont know whether it is good or not but i can feel myself changing like what the lyrics says.

Because of you

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

---

haha. aiyah. yes yes emo lar. but makes me think again. anyway. all this emo aside, i want to be HAPPY! :D i'll stay "shtrong" :D haha.

and i love my liuqin. i think my only love now is my liuqin. i want to spend all my time with it! and do nothing else at all!

ohyah! it was health checkup today. and i weighed myself to find out that i am 42! lol! i miraculously decreased by 2kg from the obs medical checkup i went for 2 days ago. lol! i didnt do anything. in fact, i ate more this few days. lol. WEIRD. but i got so happy after that that i went to eat crazily. lol! but still. hahahahhaah :D

2007-05-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

hahaha. this is a super funny poster i saw.

hahahaha. this is the original poster:

LOL! i wondered who modified it! lalallalala.

2007-05-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

hello! i was checking my hotmail today. And there was just like one chain mail. Before last saturday, it was always filled with LDP emails. But now, theres nothing concerning LDP at all. Im just so not used to it. Honestly, it was sometimes irritating when i saw my whole email filled with LDP stuff. But now, i want it. I miss LDP!

My life feels empty now that LDP is over ): i kept checking my email, hoping to see some thing concerning LDP but there was none ): ahh. Life's just like that, when you have something, you dont treasure it and when it's gone, you regret. omg, i can't believe this is happening to me!!! i can't believe that i actually miss LDP so much.

Okay, anyway. Now that LDP is over. Im back to my liuqin. I have stopped going for liuqin lessons for about 2months plus and now that i finally have time. Im going for it again. I miss my liuqin. VERY MUCH. But just now, when i finally picked up my liuqin after 1month, i felt extremely bad. I have neglected it for such a long long time. My finger tips are no longer hard from pressing on those rusty strings. That is bad. Cause it showed how long i haven't touched my liuqin ):

I can't play at all. and the sound came out like shit when i finally managed to tune it and clean off the rust. and my fingers just dont follow. SORRY liuqin! ): I dont deserve you ): I can't believe i just left you lying there for a month. Not touching you at all.

I promise i will practise more now that i have time. Till my fingertips turn hard again. Till my wrist turn loose enough to play without any pain. Till my arm muscle turn strong again. And i'll play wonderful music with you again! :D

okayokay. this post sounds a bit GAY. haha but... that's what's running through my mind now. haha so guess you can say im feeling GAY now. hahaha

2007-04-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

hello! today was LDP symposium!
assembled at NYGH early at 7am this morning to prepare for this big day! haha. i was like dressed in my oversized blazer and oversized shoes. LOL. but i enjoyed myself (:

eunice olsen was the guest of honour and her speech was long and entertaining. she talked to me for quite a fair bit and i think shes quite a nice person. She doesnt have the perfect looks like how everyone thinks Miss Singapore should have but she has this aura and charisma that outweighs everything else. most importantly, shes super friendly and doesnt feel like an NMP at all. haha got her autograph and took photos with her! :D

after LDP, most of the LDP participants bombed island creamery. everyone gathered there and had ice creams till the place was almost exploding :D it was fun. listening to the ri boys gossiping! haha. they gossip so much more than girls about almost every single boy from their cohort. lol.

then went off to bugis with some of them and we stoned at the foodcourt for a long long time. walked around aimlessly after that and went home.

I have sort of looked forward to the symposium previously, cause i thought it really took up a lot of my time. Yet, now that LDP is finally over, i must say im super reluctant and i want to continue doing it. i have gained many experiences through LDP that i may never get to have ever again in my life and i have forged many friendships. Team thisABILITY rocks!

i would like to say sorry to those whom i may have offended in any way throughout the project :D throw all the bad memories away and safeguard the good ones deep in our hearts :D

im sure today wont be the last day im seeing all of you guys cause we still have cleaning up to do! :D now that LDP is over, i actually look forward to it!

through this thing, i have made many friends like... sambor, daniel, alena, tongjie, justin, serene, nicholasyun, sarah, ahgong, seetow, jasmine and many many more! sorry if i have forgotten to mention anyone but thankyou everyone! you guys made LDP wonderful! :D

although you guys might definitely not be reading this...

to Dr Lim:
Thankyou so much for helping me get into LDP! i have gained so much from it. not just leadership skills, but friendship and wonderful experiences! If not for you, like what you said, i wont be at nanyang today in this red NJ blazer proudly showcasing my project! :D

to Mrs Tan:
Thankyou for getting me and the rest to go for the symposium last year! thanks for letting me know about LDP and here i am now! :D

to Mr Han and Ms Wong:
Thanks for guiding me through the way when i had problems and had to approach you and enduring with all the mess that i caused in my school work due to LDP.

to all my subject teachers:
Sorry for all the trouble caused when i do not hand in any homework or just sleep through lessons during this period of LDP. i promise to put in more effort now that i wont have to be busy for LDP.

to team thisABILITY:
Thankyou for carving such a huge mark in my life! Sorry for being such a slacker throughout this project. Sorry if i have offended any of you throughout the course of the project (which i think i really did) and i hope all of us will still keep in contact! im sure this journey did something to our life and i have never regretted joining LDP, although there may be times when i just felt like not doing anything at all. Thankyou GUYS and GIRL! :D

at last, i can only say LDP rocks! and if i ever had a chance, i would go for it again! to all those sec3s in GEP or IP schools, do apply for LDP and experience all of it yourself (:

team thisABILITY! 6 individuals, 4 schools, 2 genders, 1 team! :D

mel and i! haha. we look like we have square bodies! :D

anyway. i heard about more things today. dont worry, it wont affect me for long :D life's like that, just have to live with it and make the best out of everything. most importantly, both the people i care for, and myself (OF COURSE! haha) , must be happy. whatever is happening elsewhere is nothing much to care about :D i think i have learnt new things again and isn't that in some way good too? :D im going to make the best out of my life in this cruel society :D the previous post was quite emo, YUCKS. haha.

Cass is trying hard to remain a happy girl or more precisely Cass is a happy girl! :D stay strong! :D or like my shihui mama's trademark, "shtrong" :D

JIAYOU :D

2007-04-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

hello! its super long since i last updated this blog. sorrrry! was extremely busy this few weeks that i didnt have time to do much things.

anyway, had LDP symposium rehearsal today, so missed the whole day of school. was quite slacky cause we just rehearsed the movement over and over again, did our booth and thats all.

went to ps with mel and 3 other ri boys for "linner" or "dunch" at 4plus and we rot at yoshi till around 6. haha. the boys couldnt stop gossiping about almost every single human in their cohort. haha. halfway through, i went up to the foodcourt to look for can tabs. the cleaners were very efficient in clearing the leftovers so didnt see any used cans on the tables. So i approached a cleaning aunty to ask her if she knows where i can get the tabs. She directed me to the can recycling bin, got me a plastic bag and said in mandarin "sorry, cannot help you take cause will get complained. you just dig here yourself kay?" it was so nice of her though she cant help me! and so, i stood there dig the bin for every possible can tabs and plucked it out.

haha. it was dirty and painful okay! ohtwo! if you are reading this, hope you guys follow my example, and produce at least 5 tabs by monday. we must let terra maintain our status! :D and han ern, dont say im an irresponsible house aff! haha.

okay. wonderful experience digging the bin in a shopping centre's foodcourt in my school uniform. will try it again when i have time to collect as much as possible :D

and i dare proudly say, im a responsible house affiliate! :P

anyway, just found out something and im abit sian now. i know if i know i have done nothing wrong, i shouldnt care about what people say. but im really curious and i dont want to be wrongfully accused. and i dont even know what it really is exactly. SIAN ):

2007-04-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

hellohellohello!
although today was a long day, i wasnt very tired! because... i slept through lots of lessons!

haha is2104 was video screening on some plant thing or whatever. and so i slept through the whole lesson for 50minutes! then for GC it was some video too, and mr han said if we didnt want to watch, we can just sleep. so of course, i slept! hahaha

GS lecture was cancelled for i dont know what reason. so we went to the library to stone. lol. and i slept abit too. thats why, i was wide awake for the whole of chinese lecture! it's like the first time ever in history! haha

walala. we ran the actual 2.4 for PE today. and i broke my own record! haha. timing was 13.40. 6th place in class and 3rd girl! walala. this has never happened to me in RV okay! i used to be the kind who runs for like.. 18minutes and barely manage to pass. haha. but yay! lol. okay although the timing may not be damn fantastic, but its still an accomplishment for me! :D mel was damn pro! 12minutes plus. hahaha! shall try to beat that timing next year. lalala.

ohh. then niggs and i went home. i spotted 5flower in school and so we lagged awhile to see her run :D haha then on the bus, niggs suddenly felt a terrible stomachache and so i accompanied her to bukit timah cc to shit. haha then we chionged home.

when i reached home, i started shitting like mad too. we strongly suspect it's the post 5 flower syndrome! ahh! hahaha must be some curse.

lol! lalala. im happy today! :D

2007-04-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

hello! i have decided to stop blogging in chinese. Can't take it anymore. Its extremely tedious and i will go nuts.

haha. ohyah talking about nuts! mel says she's bring nuts for me tomorrow so that i can throw them over someone. And hopefully that someone will get the hint :D LOL! i sounds nuts again.

anyway i went to niggarm's house after school today and i realized something! For the first time in my life, i am heavier than niggarm! omg! niggarm grew lighter by 500g while i grew heavier by 500g from the last time we weighed ourselves which was 3days ago. OMG

haha. i realized that when one is happy, one will easily gain weight. seriously. my weight has been on the rise nonstop since late February when i became a happier person. hahahahaha. maybe thats the price to pay for being happy. HAHA i dont know which one i want though. LOL

anyway i was cheerfully and happily typing this post when the saw the whole stack of scholarship brochures and i became stressed. i have always wanted to be a gynecologist, but recently, i became interested in the uniform groups. i thought of being a police officer or prison officer. I wanted to be so many many things that i can't decide which i want. Ahh. this has never happened to be before since primary school. My mind was so set on being a gynecologist that when my peers were talking about all the funny careers they are going into, i could say firmly and confidently that i want to be a gynecologist. But now, i became to think more about it. Whether it is really a practical choice, whether i can make it. haha

and my mom came in when i was stressed. And she started talking about all the crap that is so not applicable to this generation anymore. And i got so pissed i started talking in the way like how i normally talked to my friend. So she got pissed and started shouting. So my dad came in and scolded me like mad. His inference skills are so good i think he should go be a lit teacher. Haha. He could link to things that have no link about this at all. And now hes so pissed hes shouting till the whole world could hear and ive got to go school myself now. wow so wonderful.

haha. i dont like it when they add to my stress when im stressed enough. ahh sian! must be happy!!!! yupyup im a happy girl no matter what! :D and noone, nothing is going to affect me at all :D

haha. this is a super gigantic apple i attempted to finish. But i failed cause i was bloated by the time i finished half of it. lol

2007-04-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

你好！

今天是一个很好的一天。很早就放学了。我就和诗棋一起冲出学校。原本那个看门的人不让我们出去。他说要一点钟才能走。然后我们就和他辩论了很久，他才让我们走。

哈哈。我一回到家就睡觉，不知不觉，就睡到了六点。真好！哈哈。

而且，我今天有一个很大的成就。就是，我第一次做我的物理功课。我已经很久很久没有做功课了。哈哈。自从上一次的物理测验我虽然没什么温习但得到高分，我就开始喜欢上物理。

哈哈。今天马来舞蹈团有比赛，希望星期四成绩公布会是好消息。

哈哈。用华文写日记真是很辛苦，但是，为了今年的o水准，我一定要撑下去。哈哈。好了，再见！:D

2007-04-09T20:07:00.000+08:00

你好！今天我要用华文来写日记。因为我的华文现在很差，所以我要多写华文，才能进步。哎呀，我才写了一点点就很累了。

今天，华文课得写报章报道。就是这样我发现我的华文真的很差。今年的O水准我不知道如何考。希望我能够及格。哈哈。我一定要进步我的华文水准。不然，如果不及格，明年就得浪费时间来读华文。会死掉的。

哈哈明天是一个很短的天在学校。而且还可以看小孩不笨。很slack.

啊!我真地写华文写得很辛苦了.我就在此搁笔了. 哈哈.再见! :D

最后,华语COOL! :D

2007-04-08T17:11:00.000+08:00

lol. forgot to put this 2 super important picture in the previous post! just shortly after it was made, i notice 90% of the CO members on my msn is using it as dp :D

haha. note the pun :D

haha. this is the senior's version. but i dont think i'm considered a senior... im like hanging there. not on either side /:

I LOVE RVCO! HONOURS! :D

2007-04-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

Servant Leadership is just a better word for Slavery.
Haha. This is what i learnt from yesterday and the day before.
Lol. Shall recount the many interesting events that happened throughout the past few days that i was too lazy for blogging.

Wednesday was wonderful. It was rvco's big day. SYF 07. And during LA lesson, while watching the crucible, i received a phone call from jolene. "GOLD WITH HONOURS" I was so happy i just hung up on her. HAHA. then i received an sms from her saying "the honours is for you" and i was like WOW. all those memories rushed back again.

Friday was good friday. But i woke up early in the morning and reached RI at 9. To prepare the place for our event the next day. Shifting wheelchairs, tables, paints. lol. practically doing all the saigung. haha. Then met up with the liuqinzhongruan people to celebrate at Holland V. Listening to them talk about SYF, and how they were so proud about it made me happy but on the other hand i was sad too. Pearlyn said "you not happy for us meh?". DUH of course i am super duper extremely happy for all of them. But im also sad for being able to share their experience and be there recounting it with them. Instead i'm just there being happy for them and listening to them say, when it's like NONE OF MY BUSINESS cause i didnt contribute at all /: ahh. must stop saying, if not i will get all emo again. ohyah. Mr Seetoh treated us to crystal jade.

Lol. Saturday. Reached Ri early at 8am for the big day. It was nonstop of working; moving the wheelchair, laying newspaper, setting up the briefing room before the participants arrived. The whole floor had lots of paint all over that the teacher came over and scolded us. So we used turpentine and slowly scrubbed the floor. It takes approximately 30minutes to scrub off a 2cm2 patch of paint 'cause the floor was porous. And you should see how big the place was. lol. i scrubbed from 1plus all the way till 7 plus till i was like half dead by the time i left. OH and i cleaned the girl's toilet. Scrubbing every single area, even the floooor. lol. And till my fingers suffered from cramps, and my palm is corroded, by the turpentine, tinner, and the super pro paint remover. haha. muscles are aching all over now. HAHA

lol. so here i am hibernating away my whole sunday. lol. here are some photos i took yesterday (:

everyone working on their wheelchair. Quite messy. hahaha

Our workplace. The registration booooth. (:

This is done by Yile, jojo, niggarm and mel. They ran away halfway! hahaha but its quite cute! :D

haha. people so engrossed in their wheelchair that they dont notice the presence of my camera :D

Another LDP team here to support us :D

The Dunman team. Their final product was quite nice though they didnt win.

The NYGH senior team. HAHA. they won!

Look at their cleanliness level! Guess this also contributed to their victory (:

The SCGS team. I like the little yellow/orange men on the back of the wheelchair.

I think this is IJ katong. Their's was really a work of art. They went into every single detail. it's one of my personal favourite. (:

Another IJ team. I think it's KC too.

LOL. this amount of newspaper was just a quarter of what we got rid of.

lol. then turn back. See the contrast. One side was so peaceful while the other is in chaos. lol.

woohoo! 'Wheel Art, Real Art". haha it may not be totally a success but i hope the participants enjoyed themselves (: The standards of the artworks were definitely much much higher than we have expected. Thankyou everyone who helped in one way or another (:

2007-04-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

hello! haha. I realized everytime, after i come back from visiting rvco, my blog post will be emo. talking about how i wished i didnt leave rvco that time. Everyone says i should move on. And i know that too. But whenever i try to leave it behind, something or someone just has to appear to make me remember how painful it is.

Haha. Anyway, my mission today was to transport my liuqin to RVCO to be used as spare qin for tomorrow's SYF. Of course, also to go back and give my juniors and peers some support :D I heard them play, and it was WOW :D really. The improvement from the previous time i heard them, which was during their SYF rehearsal, till now, was simply so great. They practised the whole thing over and over again. And there was once, i heard, and i realized my vision was blurred by a layer of liquid. I forced it back and i listened on. It came out again and now i rubbed my eyes to get rid of it. Then after they finish both the songs, i went over to jolene to tell them how good they were! And my tears just gushed out uncontrollably /: it was extremely embarrassing! i didnt know why this happened. I think it was just so touching and i am reminded of everything. Of how i so desperately want to stay in RVCO although i wanted another kind of education ): Of how i should have been the one up there playing now. Of how i wanted to work hard with everyone else in the orchestra towards our common goal.

lol. enough of emo-ness. I still love RVCO :D I can't go to support them tomorrow 'cause there's lessons ): But even so, my heart will be there. And i guess i won't be concentrating during lessons although i know theres nothing i can do.

Anyway, to everyone of RVCO :D, although you might not be reading it. ALL THE BEST FOR TOMORROW :D just do your best and let the RVCO spirit diffuse into the whole conference hall. i believe in you people! And dont be stressed, dont worry, cause you guys can do it! :D dont forget, there are many many people out there, supporting for you guys, cheering for you guys be it physically or mentally! Now, it's not the matter of whether you get GWH or whatever. It's about doing your best, trusting yourselves, giving your heart to the music. Because with that, i'm sure you can achieve what you aim for. so JIAYOU! :D

2007-04-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

hello! woke up much earlier today to take the 40minutes train ride to bishan /: then followed the sea of white boys into RI. haha.

the sea of white was really overwhelming and i felt super out of place there because i was gray. haha. Make an announcement during their morning assembly and it was totally embarassing. haha. guess noone was listening though /: haha. then we stoned and lagged and waited for till 10am for their recess.

I distributed flyers but the people are so scary /: the little sec1s and 2s were super cute though. haha. they ran away when i wanted to pass them the flyer. haha. maybe i looked like a monster :P then the upper secs were nicer, in a way, 'cause they would at least make an effort to "fu yan" you by taking the flyers and then leaving it on the table when you are unaware. lol. i thought the sec1s would be more enthusiastic than their seniors, 'cause louis said so. haha. But turn out, both upper and lower secs were as unenthusiastic. Just that they showed it in a different way.

i still remember this little boy who was reading some notice from the notice board. i walked over to him and said, "oei! dont read this lar, come see my booth!". then he said, "cannot! i need to read this notice!" lol then he ran away. HAHAHA so cute. ohno. i sound like a pedophile. lol

then left RI at 12pm. At the bus stop, we met this old indian woman. She was so skinny, she looked so weak ): then she started shouting in her language which we didn't understand. Then suddenly i heard a loud "bang!" sound and there she is on the floor, flat. i was STUN. we were STUNNED. then she stoned for 2 secs, rubbed her head, and stretched out her hands for us to help her up. Then, the bus came and justin and alena helped her up while tongjie and i took the bags. lol. then on the bus she told an indian lady that she wanted to go tekka mall. and 156 which we were on doesnt go to tekka mall. So i think we "yao bang ta, fan er hai le tai". lol. we felt damn bad, but ohwells, what can we do? i'm really glad how she is okay, even after falling so badly.

reached school rather late and had lessons. lessons were quite slack today. lol. its dog-and-bone championship, first round tmr. hope we win! :D but im worried cause we were too complacent /:

here are some photos! :D

haha. this is the RI boarding school. Looking back, around 3 years ago, i was here, performing. and i remember all the times with PEARL. and i remember how noooby i was :D fond memories i l have in this place (:

haha. they have nice, conducive environment! :D

lol. im standing at RI, and less than 50m ahead is RJC. nice building they have (:

haha. ohyah! my mama cut hair! we both have funny hair now! :D LALALA

2007-04-01T16:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!

hellohellohello! Planned to go school today. But shihui and jialin can't make it. So didn't go. Haha. And so i stoned at home for the whole of today.

Haha. Yesterday was quite nice though. Had LDP meeting in the morning at cineleisure. Met jolene after that and we walked around. Ate crystal jade 'cause we can't decide on what else to eat. And both of us are anti-fastfood. haha

Then we walked around and bought earrings! :D jolene is very happy with what she bought :P we know why. HAHAHA anyway mugged a bit macs. It was seriously not a conducive environment for mugging. But at least i managed to finish chem :D haha. We wanted to mug at the library initially but there was no space /: see, there are many other muggers besides us okay :D

ohyah last night, i got pranked by Pearlyn NEO. She took advantage of my concern ): HAHAHA. she called me and told me that she cut her middle finger tip when it's just 3 days from SYF. then i panicked like mad and she said "Happy April Fool's". Felt like kicking her ass at that time. haha.

haha. here's our mugging situation. lol. she only bought a cup of coke and we sat there for hours. lol. ohyah! i was worried people might think we are les when we go out together /: lol. like how i infer that some people are gay in our school :P

2007-03-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

hello! hello! hello!
I'm at the SMU conference hall now for LDP Final Presentation.

It is extremely boring!!! There are like 10teams and each team takes about 30minutes to present. My team is team 8 so obviously we are the last few. I have been rooted to the seat for 2hours and i can feel my butt rotting! ): Team 5 has just started presenting.

LOL. Today was a slack day. PE was the first period and we ran 8 rounds. lol. i did something MEAN :D lalala. who cares. lol. had slack lessons like LA, GC and MATHS then i left class for LDP.

Anyway, my day started off bad. I woke up to realise my PE tee was still in the laundry so i called like 10 people to ask if they have extra. But most were still asleep and those who answered did not have extra. And i woke jolenies up and wasted 20minutes of her sleep /: SORRY. lalala. then i realised all my nice socks were washing too. So i had to wear the new socks which was quite kuku ): Because of finding the socks and calling people, i was rather late and miss my whole chain of buses. but my father refused to fetch me to school and said it was my fault ): lol. then when mel called me, i realised i didn't charge my phone! and batt was like 10% ):

lol. but nvm. Everything is back to normal now, i hope :D

Because of LDP, i didn't do many many homework. /: So this weekend, i have to rush my:
1. LA consolidation
2. Geog Essay
3. Ma2104 tutorial
4. Ma2103 tutorial

lalala. wish my luck /:

2007-03-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

haha. This post is going to be rather emo i guess. HAHA

i think you have given me a chance to learn a lot. You didn't teach me anything but from that incident, i learned a lot. And all these things that I've learnt have made me a much happier person now.

Although I'm really busy most of the time, I'm happy because I know I'm not wasting any of my time and I'm always doing things that I enjoy. Like, LDP. Although it gets frustrating and irritating at times, I did not regret taking part in it because I've gained much more out of it.

Anyway, back to my point. After that incident, I've grown. I can't say I have become more mature. Because I'm probably not yet. But, one thing for sure, I've learnt many things. It's not something that i can express in words. But all this makes me a person who gets happy more easily. I'm enjoying everyday of my life now (: Although i may whine and grumble about how i have lack of sleep and how i am so busy that i have no life anymore. HAHA.

But something i realised too is that i am a more selfish person now too. I put my own pleasure in first place. Yes, call me selfish or whatever. But, think of this. Life's too short. Why care so much? Just follow your heart and enjoy every moment of your life (: Never mind. Most people won't understand what i'm talking about but i believe some do. And i just want to write down what i'm feeling now. To note my growth and to affirm myself :D

Still, sometimes it can't help being sad when the people you care about are suffering but you can't be of any help ): I want to help you all so badly but it's just within my means. Sorry for being so lousy ): Sitting there, watching you suffer but not being able to do anything. It feels miserable. I just want the people i care for to be happy! That contributes to my happiness too!

LOL. you people know what I'm talking about. Be HAPPY okay? :D Although i can't give any solutions or whatever. I'm always there to listen if you don't mind :D

anyway LDP is driving everyone crazy. LALALA

ohh. here's a quote to hopefully motivate and remind me :D

"I can think of nothing less pleasurable than a life devoted to pleasure." - John D. Rockefeller

2007-03-27T17:05:00.000+08:00

hello! today was a rather short day but i was feeling really dead today.

I was so lethargic in the morning that i fell asleep on the toilet bowl. When singing the National Anthem i fell asleep too! It was when i felt myself falling backwards that i awake. Is2104 was supposedly quite interesting for me now that we have started on the biosphere but i can't stop myself from falling asleep. And i slept through the whole video screening part ): But the next period was Chem and i suddenly felt energetic doing all the Chem questions! :D I could feel a sudden surge of energy once i started doing the question. haha. YAY i love CHEM :D

Oh. And GS was rather interesting today. We had a debate about censorship in Singapore and i was on the pro side. lol. It turned out somehow like a quarrel at times but it was still fun :D But Mr Han had to make us end it due to time constraint ): Then straight after school i rushed out of school to go home! Had so many things to do that i really can't to be laggy /:

Okay, supposed to be go over to RI for some publicity for LDP but it has been cancelled last minute /:

lala. hope i will have energy tomorrow! :D

2007-03-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

hello! Went to Bukit Batok's McDonalds to mug with shihui, yibo and yihong today. Of course, for me it wasn't mugging because i was just doing my LDP final presentation powerpoint while there were mugging for their test. Oh and i finished LDP powerpoint :D HAHA Shihui was rather inefficient and she only started mugging after 3 hours. And she couldn't stop taking photos. Mostly of herself :D

We talked. Many funny things :D It was fun being with them although Yibo can't stop suaning my lousy Chinese /: haha. then Duying came after her Malay Dance at Kallang and she gave Shihui a scare when her head appeared in between Yibo and Yihong's. haha

Shortly after, we got chased away by the McDonald's stuff. So we went to the interchange to await Jialin's grand arrival. But she appeared from the other way. LOL. Then we proceeded to buy Jen's present and it was so amusing how we went to look for the $3.20 thingy :D Hope she likes it cause i like them too :D

HAHA. Then we ate Pastamania. My Bacon Aglio had oil that seemed like the soup. And the remaining bacon was like soaked in OIL ):

Then went home after that. HAHA. I'm still in the midst of reading The Crucible Act 1 ): It's tough. For me, at least

2007-03-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

Hello! Today was quite an interesting day.
I woke up at 9 and went to Meritus Mandarin for a wedding lunch.

The groom was my cousin. Okay, not really cousin, it's a bit more distant. To be exact, he is my dad's cousin's son. Anyway, this cousin, is an Indonesian who works at Singapore. Yes, my father has many many uncles in Indonesia. And the bride is an Indonesian too. But they are all Indo-Chinese, so the food was Chinese food. They spent one hour singing the songs, solemnization, and the prayers and stuff. I was bored because I am free-thinker. So didn't quite understand what they were doing.

The part that i enjoyed most (besides the food) was the montage of the couple. It was quite sweet. They showed their photos from young. And the locations of the photos. They had individual photos when they were both in Jakarta. Then, they showed this map which points Singapore. And they wrote "But they did not meet until... ". It's quite sweet to see how they got together like that. hahaha. OHYAH and i saw a photo of my family and i with the groom's family when i went to stay in their house in Indonesia many many years ago :D I remembered during one of the stay at their house, one of the cousin actually rode a motorbike and drove me around. I was probably only 6 at that time and she was probably 16? hahaha. but it was fun :D

Oh. And the food was nice. And the place was nice too. It feels like a Garden. i think they're trying to make it like Garden of Eden. I sat with a table consisting of my Grandma, Grandaunts, Aunt etc. It was quite interesting listening to them talking about the past. My grandma was talking about going to China, Indonesia, Singapore. They have really interesting past. And how my Grandaunt was sold to marry some little boy i think. lol. Found out many many interesting things about the seniors. And i realized how peaceful and smooth-sailing a life i lead. I've never been through much eventful things and hopefully i will not have to go through any :D

Anyway, i like this photo!

People say we look alike. Do we? Maybe that's why she's my mama! :D And i love her loads! LOL! luckily i didn't inherit her BLACK genes :P Besides that we have many things in common. We are balding, have almost no eyebrows and... we think a like! :D i was talking to her yesterday and we realized we knew exactly what each other was talking about without mentioning any names or whatever. HAHAHAHA. and we have similar taste :D LOL! hahaha. 10years later arh... HOHOHO. oh and i want to say SORRY to her (:

2007-03-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

hello! My group went down to meet Mr Too today and our project was officially rejected. So now we are hoping that RI agrees /:

Got back chemistry and physics papers. Chemistry wasn't satisfying at all. I must admit i did not work hard at all. I was too complacent and i was slacking so much the day before the paper that i didn't revise at all. And i didn't bother studying mole concept because i thought i was PRO :D HAHAHA. and apparently this test proved me wrong /:

Physics was nice (: i got above level and class average :D But it is a subject that i have no interest in and sleep through lessons. I have no idea how it fared much better than the subjects that i preferred like chemistry ):

Oh. And i think i really like Chinese songs now. Got many new Chinese songs from friends recently. Tank is wonderful! All his songs are so extremely super nice!

This is one of the songs i am listening non-stop to nowadays (:

歌曲：我们小时候

词:tank 曲:tank

小时候我总会这样牵着你的手
只是盼望能够在你的身边守候
为了保护你不小心割破手指头
这个小伤却让你泪流心痛
长大后我们越来越远
分隔地球的两边
何时才能够见面
熟悉微笑的脸
回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼就能够感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候
我了了
回忆起我们小时后
闭上眼就能够感受
站在窗前跟你说了晚安就走
离开了我们小时候
现在的你不在想我
这个时候我了了

And hopefully through listening to all this Chinese songs and being more cheena again, the standard of Chinese that i used to have in the past will get back to me :D

It's olevels HCL this year and i don't want to fail it. I can't afford to waste time in IP3 and 4 taking Chinese!

Oh. If i wasn't such an enthusiastic person who signs up for almost anything available, i won't awake now doing my LDP learning journal and final presentation. My peers who aren't so kaypoh like me should be sleeping or doing nothing now /: But I'm not saying i regret it or anything okay. I guess i can say proudly that till now, for everything i signed up for in NJ, i haven't had any regrets, like IMCB attachment that caused me to waste 3 days of crucial lessons before assessment week last year, OGL which cost me 2 weeks of lessons, LDP etcetc. Although there are indeed sacrifices that i had to make for all this activities, I gained more than what i lost which can last me for a lifetime. Okay, this sounds rather exaggerated but they're true.

Okay, it's getting crappy. Back to LDP :D byebye (:

2007-03-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

I don't know why i am still blogging at this time now but i really have to write out everything or i may go crazy anytime. Okay, maybe not that serious but its definitely stressful for me ):

Advertised for my LDP project to the IP1s and 2s during CAAL today and we set the venue at NJC. The response was quite good and we have also received calls and smses from schools of interest in taking part. But, shortly after i left school today, i received a call from Mr Wong that Mr Too is not in favour of us using the school compound for this project, mainly because he is worried that we might dirty the school compound due to the heavy painting that we are planning to do.

So, everything stopped suddenly. We can't do anything without a venue. What we can do now is try and persuade Mr Too. It's too short a time to find another venue and settle everything all over again. Every other LDP groups are near completion and we are here deciding on the venue. I feel super bad because i was the one who suggested the use of NJC. Thought it would be easier at first because NJ i rather wheelchair assessable and hais.. I don't know. We'll have to meet up with Mr Too soon to persuade him. We've came this close and i don't want this to stop just like that.

Now, our event is not even confirmed yet but we need to hand in some portfolio thing and there's a final presentation next Friday which i have volunteered to do because i think i haven't put in enough effort for my group and i needed to do more to redeem myself. Oh and there's still the learning journal due this Friday.

I have to finish my proposal by tonight and get started with the presentation. I have no idea what's going to happen next and I'm sad ):

Okay. Got to get started with everything. BYEBYE ):

2007-03-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

hello! It's the first day of Term 2 today but i don't have any special feelings about it. Nothing special happened because it's just like another ordinary school day. The only interesting thing was probably the fact that the j1s are finally in NJ uniform and it kind of feel weird because now, everyone looks the same and its really hard to identify people.

Morning assembly was in the hall today because of the wet weather. And i just realized this is the first time i am standing in the hall with the class this year. I didn't even know where our class was supposed to stand! Lessons were as per normal today. Mr Lee forgot to come for our lesson today! :D And during Chinese lecture, we got back our test paper. Haha. i merely passed with 34/62. lol! don't snigger. And don't ask me why i publicize my results like that. I mean, its a fact and i just have to accept it. Moreover, i did not put in much effort in my Chinese this year and i should be contented with just a pass (: unlike some people who cried their ass off though they did real well.

I'm having mix feelings about getting test papers back. On one hand, i know i will do real bad and i don't really want to face it. But on the other, i know we will get it back sooner or later so why not get it back now, and i like going through papers because it's extremely slack. Hope i get at least 3.00 for my GPA but thing aren't looking very good now. lol. whatever.

PE was fun. We ran for 25 minutes with a mixture of slow jog, sprinting and striding. It's very slack because i was jogging at a speed that's slower than anyone's walking speed and sprinting in my normal running speed. And in all i ran only 7/8 rounds.

Mrs Cheng was glad that NJ did well for Alevels this year so she decided to give us a half day. But it will be tomorrow and the whole school will be dismissed at 12. But our usual dismissal time is at 1220 this term so the whole IP is extremely unhappy about this. So our teachers told the school of our unhappiness and they changed in to Friday for IPs. All IP1 and 2s will be dismissed at 1140 this Friday. Everyone started cheering in the LT and only 5 of us were still unhappy. Because we have LDP in the afternoon so again, it will make no difference for us ): haha. Sad. Life's just like that. It's impossible to make everyone happy. lol

Oh yes. Yesterday was my grandma's birthday and the birthday dinner was quite enjoyable (: Food was quite nice. Plus the fact that i was sitting at the "all-cousins" table that had many little kids so i had a greater share of the food :D I ate like 2 servings for every dish and i was feeling like a pig but who cares. HAHA. anyway i like such gatherings and I'm proud to be part of this humongous extended family (:

These are just some of my closer cousins (: If all my cousins were to take a photo together, i think we'll all look tiny :D

This is group 2 (don't tell you) and 4 (Shhh!). And we were the winning team for PA camp :D Yes i know my hair is FUNNY. Don't laugh! /:

Okay. Got to go practise my liuqin which i have no done so since Wednesday. And my lesson is tomorrow! ): BYEBYEBYE :D

2007-03-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm back from PA camp :D
i must say this camp was really awesome. and i really en***ed it a lot. ( got to censor it because it was used so many times in the debrief that it was banned)

got to know many of the year1s. and i must say most of them are really nice people. i laughed a lot throughout the camp :D looking back, one year ago, i was attending such a camp organized by my seniors too. i knew more about people like shihui, jialin, nina, layhui, duying, mingxuan, ivan, dhika etcetcetc. haha. and i had so much fun that it motivated me to sign up for events and through those experience, my passion for PA grew. and a year plus of experience, i can proudly say i love PA :D i hope the year1s will go through this too (:

i enjoyed working with the seniors for this camp very much. theres only 3 more months left ): must really treasure the time left with them ): its really a weird feeling. we came in with them, went through orientation together, did our first events together, had trainings together, screwed up during event together, fell and came up again together, grew together. but whoooosh, they are just going off like that, leaving us there ):

they want us to bond well with the year1s now so that we can work well together when they are gone. and yes, we are doing that, and till now its going on rather smoothly, but its a totally different feeling. indescribable and unexplainable. ahh. i dont know what lies ahead in the months or the year to come. although i may be going through the same events and everything as last year, i'm sure it'll be a different experience. and hopefully, i will learn more. not just the technical stuff about pa but grow as a person. hahaha.

just wanted to type it all out cause after having 2 "heart-to-heart" sessions. i heard what many people said and finally managed to organize my thoughts. ohh. and i think the heart to heart session was nice. it allowed people to sit down and reflect in a nice environment. although not everyone was attentive or using the chance wisely. haha.

ohhh and like what shihui said, i also want to congratulate everyone who took part in this camp. because it was every single one of you who made this camp possible :D lalala. my time taking part in the planning and preparation was really worth it :D

hahaha. im just HAPPY! :D

but.. back to reality. i havent done GS group assignment which is due on monday. and LDP presentation which i have to send to my group members by monday. and... LA graded assignment that i havent touched ):

okay. but still im feeling slacky. so shall not do till tmr :D byebyeybye (:

hahahah! these are the year1s and some of us :D will upload more photos when i get them :D

and. my hair is still extremely screwed ):

2007-03-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

hello! i am staying up this late to do my LDP presentation okay! :D surprising isn't it? haha. i dont know why but i suddenly enjoy LDP! :D

i suddenly realized how important the success of our project is. Went down to HWA today, talked to Kelvin and stuff. and heard through tongjie that HWA is pinning high hopes on our project. i suddenly have the motivation to work hard and make it a success. we have came this far and i really hope it will turn out well. this can really create an impact, to raise awareness to the general public about handicaps, and also let the HWA clients know that they are a part, not apart. they are this abled, not disabled.

many things are not finalized yet and we only have 3plus weeks left ): i want it to be OKAY! i want to create an impact in the lives of the handicaps. although i know i'm too small a fry to do such things, i want to put in more effort and know that i have tried my best.

For the past few months doing LDP, i must really admit i didnt put in much effort. i put more emphasis in my school and CCA commitments and was quite slack at LDP. but suddenly, i felt super motivated and i really want to put in more effort. hopefully it's not too late yet, but i think it is. whatever it is, i will work harder from now on :D the remaining 3plus weeks! i must not leave this project with regrets that i havent tried hard enough.

okayokay! this sounds so GAY! haha or GYA as xiuyi puts in. have to wake up early tmr for PA meeting /: okay shall go back to doing the PPT. byebyebye! (:

2007-03-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

hello! (: today was a nice day! i spent the whole of it with rvco :D it was so nice hearing 大家辛苦了!

went to RV early at around 11plus today. and i had to change 3 buses before i got there okay! haha. met jolene, pearlyn, shibin and wangyan at the canteeeen and jolene said she thought i was a p6 kid coming to apply for dsa at rv. haha. fine :D chat for awhile and we headed down the CO room in which pearlyn and i started playing together. all those songs that we played together in the past. but unfortunately, i have not touch them for so long that i couldnt remember much songs ): after which, we sat outside the CO room as a section and i listened to them play the syf pieces.

then, i followed them onto the bus to go to the singapore conference hall (SCH). i was trying to blend in with them and not look extra by helping aixin hold her liuqin :D but failed and a senior, huiling, came to ask me who i am. haha she's now known as Ms Tay cause shes teaching in RV and is RVCO teacher i/c. haha. ohh and she gave me a pass so i could enter the conference hall (:

when we reached SCH, i realized many seniors came back too. so they went to have their rehearsal and i sat there to watch and help them record. rvco was good of course (: and liuqin was super loud. i'm so proud of them cause this is the time people acknowledges the presence of liuqin! (: but overall, they have made it technically. the sound is okay. but something just seems to be missing. i personally think it just barely made it pass the GOLD standard. needless to say, its far from the GOLD WITH HONOURS that's the goal. i guess what was missing was the feeling, the feeling that will make seniors and juniors cry, the rvco spirit. its not there. and i really hope it will be there on the actual day of the competition.

but. looking at them play just made me sadder. i started thinking about that question again, "what if i hadn't leave?" i really want to play for RVCO, and fulfill my promise to the seniors. i know i wont make much a difference but i want to work with everyone else towards our goal. this wish hasnt changed since i left RVCO. but.. both options have their pros and cons and i have made the decision long long ago since no point regretting now. but still, when i look at pearlyn on the stage, i expected myself to be up there with her too. not aixin. the feeling of me sitting at the audience watching is just weird. it just shouldnt be like that ):

like what mr seetoh said, pearlyn and i cant play very well individually but we sound really fine with one another. cause we know each other so well that i know when shes going to miss a note and she knows when i'll skip a beat. and we cover up for each other so well that you wont hear any mistake. i love playing with her! my loudness and her steadiness just blends so well! when i looked at her and aixin on stage today, it was just so weird. they didnt look like they were playing the same thing. pearlyn was too serious and focused while aixin had her eyes floating around. they just didnt look together. like.. when pearlyn is leaning forward, aixin is swaying backwards. there wasnt any chemistry betweeen them. this, pearlyn pointed out too. its not that aixin is lousy or what. she's good and i've seen her improvement since sec1 but.. they just couldnt play with each other.

ahhh. sorrrry pearlyn that i left you there alone ): i really want to play with you up there for RVCO. i want to work with all of you to get that GOLD WITH HONORS. but i cant. life's just so cruel. you cant get everything. so since i chose the kind of education i wanted, i have to sacrifice something else thats important to me as well. thats opportunity cost.

there's so many things i wanted to say but i dont know how to cause its so difficult to organize my thoughts. i was sad today cause there were so many parts for liuqin to showcase our skills. and to let people know that theres an instrument in CO called the liuqin and it was of equal importance as percussion or erhu okay! but... i could only sit helplessly at the audience. hais.. i miss playing with pearlyn. the times we always cover up for one another and everything. i miss liuqinzhongruan. and i miss RVCO! when i heard that 大家辛苦了 before dismissal, all the memories came flashing back into my mind. i was like "WOW i really miss the times when i said that"

hahaha. okay enough all my emo-ing again. here are some nice photos i took today :D

RVCO on the stage :D wish i was up there too ):

the focus of the photo is mainly on pearlyn and aixin who we bending down looking at their liuqin intently. haha they're kind of small cause i was sitted super far away from the stage. but throughout the whole 1hour plus of rehearsal, my eyes were fixed on them and i took down everything that i felt was not right. haha like how aixin kept moving her legs :P

haha! my PASS! :D i love the words on it and i know i'll always belong to it no matter where i go to :D

LiuqinZhongruan sec3 and 4s. i'm the extra one :D haha love all of them!

anyway RVCO must 加油! i cant be playing with you all but i'll be giving moral support :D and my liuqin will be there on the stage with you guys (:

22 more days to SYF'07

2007-03-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

haha. forgot to upload a picture that i took today after finishing a storybook i borrowed on Saturday. and found another interesting thing :D

haha. note the 3rd last time. HAHAHA there's another book with title "CODE NAME CASSANDRA". lalala. so coooool. people like using my name as booktitles. or more specifically, virus names. 'cause i realized in both stories, "cassandra" referred to a computer virus. ahh. hahaha but still its cooool okay! :D

okay thats all for today. have been leaving 专属天使 on my ipod repeat mode and i think it hit a thousand counts :D haha and jialin send me another song which TANK sang for tokyo juliet 非你莫屬. its super nice toooo. and have been listening to it nonstop :D okay i officially declare TANK as my first favourite male chinese singer. cause i have several other songs of his that i really like too. looking back, i havent really cared about male singers in the past and i dont really have favourite male singers or whatsoever, so this is like my first in my 16 years of life. or probably 7years of listening to pop songs. his singing is really good and the songs are nice too. didnt consider the looks factor. of course for that, WU ZUN would be better by a million times! haha but WU ZUN cant sing so hes not my favourite singer :D lalala. okay this is getting crappy. haha.

非你莫属 - TANK

☆music☆
<白>:你知道吗?☆
我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉☆
发生什么样子我好希望再来一次☆
懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
那人是你所以
不怕苦...
0o0不怕苦☆...

haha i just realized after watching hana kimi, my posts are getting more and more cheeena. hahaha but thats good too! can improve my chinese :D

2007-03-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

hello! tired tired tired! it's just the first day of this one week short holiday, yet i woke up at 7! and went to school for PA meeting. hahaha. okay was quite fun and i kept eating non-stop :P

mel and i went off early to have lunch cause both of us need to go home early. so we went town to eat pastamania, spent 30minutes at cactus and pine. after which we headed home. i bought a greeen hairband cause my orange one broke ): and she bought a glittery one. haha

anyway took 106 to bukit batok interchange. and i fell asleeep on the bus. the next minute, i felt someone poking me and i woke up. the bus was empty and this guy came to wake me up. i was extremely embarrassed! ohh and he walked away so fast that i didnt even have time to thank him. anyway back to the topic, it was so embarrassing!!! and i quickly rummaged through my bag to find my wallet. lalala.

im super tired and i want to sleeeeep! but some stupid construction is going on outside my house or something. super super noisy. lalalalala. this is terrible ):

2007-03-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

hello! hello! hello!
changed skin out of boredom again. i think this is like the 10th skin i changed in 2 weeks.

anyway went to the IT show this afternoon. it was really 人山人海, 水泄不通. (lol! i remember this 2 成语s are the ones that always appear in my 作文 in primary school :D) haha. i was simply pissed with my parents for asking me to come to this weird place with so many weird people. squeezing through people was irritating enough. but not just that, you get stepped, pushed and eeeew i dont know what. and you'd feeel extremely dirty cause your skin had contact with thousands of strangers.

within 10minutes, my mom decided to buy a hp scanner cum printer. it was quite a good buy but it took us 45minutes to wait for our turn to pay. but thats not all. we were also given a 80bucks robinson voucher. and that meant more queuing up. so we queued up again. my mom went to look at some other things while i queued for the vouchers and i was pushed and stepped by many many people ): imagine this small short girl dragging this printer trying to stand put in her queue with people forcing their ways past her. luckily my mom came back aft awhile and i went to look at my own stuff.

i bought a new laptop case! love it. its mickey and its super cute. but i didnt dare to buy the 12.1" one cause i'm afraid my a4 size laptop wont fit in. so bought the 15" one. but its too big for my laptop. haha. nvm (: still like it a lot :D and bought a greeeen golla pouch tooo. i dont know for what but just bought it cause its nice :D

haha. anyway here are some pictures i took yesterday but forgotten to upload in the previous post.

hahahha! note the title of this boook okay! :D hahaha. how cooool to have a virus named after me. lalalala :P i flipped through the pages and saw many "cassandra" and "cass" in it. lalala :D wanted to borrow just because it has my name on it. but realised i wont be interested in th storyline so just took this picture :D

note: the main focus of this photo is the small little cute mixer on top of the CD player! :D i want one! this was taken outside VIVO's marche. it's just so cute i wanted to take a photo of it. my cousin was happily listening to the guy playing the xylophone while i wasnt at all interested, instead my attention was drawn to this small little cute mixer behind the guy :D and people looked at my weirdly when i took this picture /: anyway saw a lot of this small mixers at the it show today cause almost every booths had their own system. i want one! :D serious. haha

2007-03-10T22:51:00.000+08:00

hello! today was an eventful day. and i felt lousy. liquid flowed out of my eyes thrice /: super lousy. havent had liquid flowing out of my eyes for a long time. (note: i refuse to acknowledge the liquid as tears.)

had LDP in the morning. so had to wake up at 7 ): did nothing much. then went for liuqin lesson. got reprimanded cause i didnt practise much for the past 2 weeks. then had lunch with parents at some beach road place. where something traumatic happened.

my dad was waiting for parking lots so my mom and i headed to the hawker centre first. i dont know why, but my mom was angry with me so she walked very fast. regardless of the fact that her daughter who was suffering from post road run muscle aches was almost limping behind her. sooon she was so far away i couldnt see her. so didnt bother catching up. then.. reached some void deck of a hdb block. it was rather dark and deserted. and this man in his 50s suddenly came out of nowhere and stood in front of me. he started scolding me CB and ask me to dont touch him and that i very dirty then keep calling me CB. then i tried to ignore but he kept trying to block me or something. noone was there to help me!! and after many many tries i managed to run away. luckily he didnt grab me or what. as i ran away, i couldnt still hear him scolding CB. obviously, i was STUN. hais. and i ran ran ran towards my mom and shouted for her to wait for me. she turned over, looked, and continue walking. when i finally managed to catch up with her, i told her i met a mad man but she ignored. wow. her response is like.. hur.. i could feeel liquid flowing out of my eyes and my muscles trying to force it back. cause i was just so traumatized. maybe it was nothing much but i was really scared.

i dont know. when i recounted the incident to my dad later on, liquid started flowing out again. and just now when i asked my mom why she ignored me and listened to all her lame reasons, i thought of the madman and i you-know-what again ): it was just so.. traumatizing. ahhh ):

anyway went to bishan library in the afternooon after the traumatic incident all by myself. there were just so many nice books that i wanted to borrow. but could only borrow 4 ): yupp. went to ntuc to buy foooood and went home. hahaha. then came out again to have dinner with my parents and aunt's family. then went to vivo. hahaha. quite fun (: but thinking of that scary incident... ahhhh

2007-03-09T18:21:00.000+08:00

hello! road run today! fun fun fun! although i didnt run very fast, i was glad i didnt stop at all :D it's a great improvement from last year! hahaha. and guess what! terra won over 2nd! we lost to solaris but still it was another great improvement from last year! hahaha

went out with mel for lunch after that at far east! ate subway again then we walked around. and i had the sudden urge to cut hair! so i went to cut! and this noooob person helped me cut ): and the pro gay hairstylists wont there! and my hair turned out like a BOWL after that ):

cant believe i walked around in town after that! then went to mel's house and when i looked into the mirror i really freaked out! hahaha. so mel was helping me think of ways to make it look normal while doing our geog assignment. haha. and finally we found a way! YAY! :D

hahaha. i like mel's house. although it wasnt really big, but it was nice warm and COSY. like the colour and the floor especially :D sadsadsad! jolene mel and shiqi are all having camp this weekend! ): i will be a loner.... lalallalalala hahahha

2007-03-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

hello! ass week is finally over. but i dont really want it to be. cause this ass week was very slack for me. i got to sleep more than on normal school days and i wasnt as stressed.

haha. chem was a flop again ): the things that i didnt study came out and those that i did didnt. i'm sad cause it's chem and i love chem ): but no point complaining about it or what cause i didnt really put in much effort for this whole ass week. anyway its over (:

went to amk hub with shiqi jolene and mel. we ate and shiqi and jolene chiong off to do geog assignment. so i walked around with mel at amk hub. its quite nice cause they just opened it :D

i bought my first earrings! hahaha. like them a lot :D especially the strawberry one. haha. but got to wait for around 2-3 more weeks before i can change to play safe :D im scared of infection like jojo's. lalala. hahahha

haha. ohno. i think im turning more and more GAY /: like a LIM BIYING.

ohh. and i went to MOELC with mel. haha. she sneaked me in and it was so 'exciting' as she said it. but i was more freaked out that excited. the security guard looked so freaky and i was like trying to run away from him. haha. but the place looked quite cooool :D then, when charlyn came, i left. on the way back, i met louis and qianwei. hahaha. ohh and i saw some ex-nanhuapri people like samuel and the other guy whom i cant rmb his name. haha.

anyway cant rest or slack today at all ): have to chiong the geog assignment that mel and i havent even touched on /: its due tmr! looks like we have to do it after road run tooo ):

okay. byebyebye! :D ohh and i need to call the cai fan aunty to order foood from her /: haha

2007-03-07T16:02:00.000+08:00

hello! it was maths today and i said.. byebye to As for them. i would be happy enough to get a B ):

trigo was first. couldnt do some parts of come questions ): and LT5 was freezing but i had no time to put on my jacket! its only after endurance of 1 and a half hours that the paper finished and i could finally wear my jacket, but i was already frozen at that time :D

calculus was also a flop. there was only 4 questions for the short 30minutes but i couldnt do 2 of them! and out of the other 2 that i did, 1 was wrong already ):

i can imagine how ugly my GPA will look this term ): chem is tomorrow and im totally not confident at all. plus im not in the mood to study now and even if i study, i may not be able to answer the questions tmr ): cause chem papers are always killers.

anyway i just woke up from a 3 hours nap. hahaha and i feel like going back to sleep again! :D i just dont feel like mugging at all. ahh. ohh. and some school is having their sport's day at the stadium beside my house! the screamings, the announcements are extremely irritating and worse still there is construction work going on at the bottom of the block! drillings and pilings. omg.

haha. anyway today a few of us suspected someone of cheating for the test :D we're not sure but.. suspicious. hahaha

i feel so dumb. going to my blog was always the first thing i would do when i on my comp in the past but now, the first place i visit is wuzun's blog! /: ahhh. hahaha. lalala :D

2007-03-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

hello! today was physics and hcl
i didnt have confidence in physics at all. but aft the paper i was quite happy i managed to do most of the questions (: but i was so blur, i left my calculator in radian and when i have only 10minutes left with one question undone, i realised and went to change everything. luckily managed to complete everything in time :D

chinese was a total flop! i have never felt so lousy in chinese before! probably it isnt because the paper is difficult, but because my standard of chinese is lousy ): i dont know why but comparing my standard in RV and this year, its really a great difference. for the zong he tian kong, i didnt know any single word in the options so i just chose the one which looked the nicest. and for the comprehension, i dont understand what its trying to say ): so i just copied chunks of words into the answer ):

anyway. i just want to express my discontent towards some very inconsiderate people. or maybe one inconsiderate person. i know its none of my business at all but i seriously feel annoyed by the fact that some people can actually do such things at an age of 16. okay maybe not 16 yet but definitely past 15. im sure CME in primary school taught us all the stuff about being considerate, having integrity etcetc. im not saying im an extremely considerate person whatever but think of this. if you dont want something cause it will affect you, do you think others want it? such behavior is extremely selfish and rather childish. its not the matter of the person getting the lousy one, but the fact that you feel you are more superior than the other person. okay or maybe you are. but such thinking is abit low class i must say. regardless of what branded goods or high class things that you use, you behavior has already reflected your personality. seriously.

i think its extremely obvious what im referring to. you can dislike me from now onwards
or continue disliking me if you have been disliking me all along. haha. sounds weird. nvm. anyway. seriously i think you should reflect. thanks a lot. think if this happens when you are out working, wont it be more malu? lol!

thanks lar. i know im damn mean. but just writing down what i think. cant tolerate such things /:

haha. sian i dont feel like mugging maths at all. calculus is okay. but trigo ): i love trigo till the day factor formula entered my life ): im going to sleeeep now! :D

P.S. actually besides changing, why cant you think of other ways to solve the problem? :D

*edit

haha. i was too engrossed in scolding when i posted just now that i forgot to include my other complain on the day! hahaha

i was buying lunch at west mall and i felt a sudden discomfort in the stomach, so i rushed to the toilet to relief myself. hahaa. and i really want to say, west mall has the worst toilet among all the shopping malls that i went to in singapore. it is stinky, dark, wet, dirty and the most disturbing thing is that, it's vandalized all over the place. all the walls, and anyway, toilet paper dispenser. with words like "free s** call this number" . "f*** you." , "i hate you", "you s***". its damn disturbing! cant even do my business properly after that. haha. this showed another bunch of KIDS who sleep during their CME lessons. its extremely childish to do such thing thanks. then again, im not saying that im mature or whatever but this is really extreme. like "wow! how coool! vandalizing is COOL!" -.-"

anw looks like the government should change the way CME is taught. of course its not completely useless since most people around me did exactly benefit from the lessons. except A FEW of course. whom i dont know what they do during the lessons. but looks like.. most people, luckily not really in my social circle, are still not gaining anything from it. lalala. im beginning to worrrry about singapore's future, when its time for my generation to rule. wow! hahaha

okay this sounds... weird. but just random thoughts again. and since im too bored to mug. probably i'll take some pictures of the toilet next time i visit it again. but i certainly hope not to :D

anyway. goood luck for all my fellow IPs mates mugging out there! just hang on! 3 more papers left :D and to J2 seniors too! ending either tmr or thurs. hang on there and mug hard! :D

2007-03-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

rushed home straight after settling everything in school today to watch hana kimi last episode. and to my disappointment, i didnt like the ending ):

nothing was resolved and life just went on /:

probably the scriptwriter wanted it to be different from most typical dramas with nice happy ending. or maybe we can treat it as a nice ending too cause its their way of loving each other.

but i just feel very cheated. i dont like such ending ): eeeew. super sian that i dont even feel like mugging for physics tomorrow. anyway i still dont regret watching hana kimi caused it really entertained me and made me happy :D just that the ending.. hais.. yahyah. dont laugh at me. i know im dumb to spend my time being sad over just a drama. i just got to keep reminding myself that it was just fiction.

okay. but still. WUZUN! hahaha. hope they have a season 2 with the original cast :D

now its time for mugggging! and i should forget about it quickly just like how i forgot about certain things (:

2007-03-04T11:23:00.000+08:00

today is a weird day. i suddenly dont feel like mugging after 2 days of continuous , rather efficient, mugging. haha. am supposed to practise trigo questions today but all i want is HANA KIMI! ): this is killing me /: hahahaha

saw this MV of the OST on youtube! super nice!

i like ella's hair :D haha. and its really a super sweeeet MV! and WU ZUN is.. OMG! ahhh! hahahhaa. lalala WUZUN!